How could anyone dislike— a handsome lover who claims to be only interested in me and believes that whatever I have given him is more than enough? Lacius, perhaps noticing my thirst, slowly slipped away and brought me some cool water.
“Thank you.”
The bedroom was supposed to be enchanted with a cooling spell, but I had no idea when it became so hot.
I drank the water all at once and let out a deep breath. The taste of water is really sweet. Even this differed from how I used to feel. Rascius only drank after he offered me another glass.
“Shay, if you’re going to wash up—”
“No, not now.”
Going to the bathroom would disrupt the mood. He and I should be soaked in sweat, but I would rather stay this way for a while longer.
‘Besides, I really enjoy seeing Lacius right now.’
He appeared immaculate without the drawers, as if he had nothing to hide. He seems more confident than when he is dressed up, and I did not have to ask why.
‘Are men usually that big? Or is it just him?’
Although I have never seen anything, I am well aware that he is a Westerner who stands over 190 centimetres tall. Of course, that thing… is not always proportional to height.
Still, it is proportional to his? ‘
I scratched my cheek slightly before flopping down on the bed. Lacius went to the bathroom and returned with a fluffy towel dampened with cold water.
“I will clean you up; where does it hurt?”
Well, there were sore spots. There “were”.
“It felt more pleasant than painful…”
As I whispered honestly, Lacius, who was wiping my legs, stopped his hand.
Not that I was completely pain-free, but what happened next was more important, right? He wasn’t clumsy at all. He neither rushed nor hesitated. Rather, he took his time getting to know me and making me comfortable. Perhaps it would have hurt worse if he had done it with force.
Lacius moved me as if exploring every nook and cranny of my body, avoiding any area that caused even a minor discomfort. When he discovered where I felt pleasure, he did not stop until he reached the peak. It was as if he wanted to witness the ecstasy bursting from within me.
“Shay.”
Lacius eventually lay down beside me, gently running his fingers through my hair.
His tone was more affectionate than usual. I motioned for him to be my pillow, and as I rested on his chest, it appeared that the centre of his lower body was becoming stiff again, but Lacius simply held me still.
“It’s nighttime.”
The pitch-black sky could be seen beyond the window, which was covered with semi-transparent fabric that served as a curtain. Lacius remained silent as he observed what I was seeing before speaking softly.
“Darkness was the only colour I knew, but it has changed since you entered my life.”
“Ah, lie.”
“I suppose it is more accurate to say that there was colour in the world, but I did not recognize it as such, so you are responsible for showing me the beauty of this world.”
“Oh my gosh, are you giving me responsibility?”
He remained so sweet even after everything was over. I feel like I could do it with him over and over again at this point.
The slightly damp air of summer, flickering candles, and his scent. The scent of love that lingered between us. And the exotic patterns on the ceiling and the bedding.
I will never forget this moment until the day I die.
“I can’t let you go now, Shay.”
“Did you plan on letting me go before?”
“Hmm.”
Lacius shook his head and laughed, appearing embarrassed.
“There were times when I decided to let go, but… now, if you try to leave, I will make up a hundred responsibilities.”
“Okay.”
“You will be unable to abandon me in the end, even if you change your mind.”
Lacius’ lips twisted once more. He never shows this side to me. Possibly his deepest thoughts. That is the expression he gives me when he tells me what is on his mind. There is a hint of guilt, but mostly greed. And obsession.
As soon as I thought that, Lasius stared straight at me and asked.
“Can you still say that I am not greedy?”
“… … .”
“Love transforms into obsession, breaking the bonds of endless arrogance and leaving behind a state of eternal humility.”
His hand reached out, gently cupping my cheek.
“I only realized it after meeting you.”
He gave me a stunningly beautiful smile.
“Shay.”
Lacius’ voice is dangerously sweet. I steadied my trembling heart and focused on the confession drawn by the shape of his mouth.
“I love you.”
‘uh… … ?’
I don’t know why I’m tearing up. I should be laughing with joy at such a moving confession, but instead my nose stings.
‘My face is burning.’
I regret thinking that reading romantic poetry was cringe-worthy. His confession resonated with my heart like a poem.
“I like you too.”
However, the word ‘love’ didn’t come out. If love, as Lacius described it, was so immense, what I felt now could not be called love.
I liked him and wanted to be with him forever, but it was too early to call it love. Maybe after today, it will not be long before I can say I love him.
Lacius, staring at my face, gently pinched my cheek.
“I already know that your feelings are not the same as mine, and I also know that your heart moves slowly, so do not be sorry.”
As expected, he already knows. It is because he is very perceptive. I pressed my cheeks closer to his chest and pursed my lips.
“Are you disappointed?”
“Why would I be?”
“I didn’t say I love you.”
“People who lack confidence in their feelings may become upset.”
Lacius smiled as he stroked my hair.
“But I have already poured my heart out to you; if you do not reciprocate, what is there to be disappointed about?”
“Ah…”
“You just have to walk at your own pace and eventually come to me; do not go wandering off.”
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