My Will Did Not Mean This

“Conversation is good, but your health comes first! Please rest in your bedroom and I will report to His Highness.”

“I don’t know if that will work…”

“Please trust us.”

For the first time, the presence of the Too-Much-Talker Dylan felt trustworthy. It seemed that the setting up of being the second-in-command of the knights led by Aslan was not in vain.

Vivian reluctantly nodded her head. So she went up to the bedroom, changed into comfortable clothes, and was about to rest for a bit when he heard familiar footsteps outside the hallway.

Aslan, who had finished the conversation, seemed to be coming up.

“I’m coming in, Vivian.”

“After already coming in…”

“I was anxious.”

Between Aslan and her bedroom, the curtain pretending to be a curtain was wide open. Vivian greeted him, sitting comfortably against the head of his bed. Aslan made eye contact with her and walked over to her and sat down on her mattress.

“…”

But that was the end.

Aslan said nothing. It was just that his golden eyes, which had become darker, slowly swept down his face. The sensation of his gaze moving down the slim face line was clear.

Vivian casually turned her head, pretending to put a strand of her hair in her ear.

‘What is this, this questioning atmosphere? Didn’t Dylan say something wrong?’

Considering his brilliant record, it was a situation worthy of suspicion. He was crazy for believing in such a person even for a moment.

‘Damn, how do I fix this? I don’t even know what Dylan was talking about!’

Vivian was trying to calm down the surging adrenaline by repeatedly inhaling and exhaling, but Aslan bit his lower lip and roughly stroked his bangs.

“You’re having a hard time like this because I couldn’t trust you…”

“What?”

She couldn’t hear what Aslan said because she was swearing at Dylan in her mind. Vivian blinked her big deer-like eyes, trying to look as harmless as possible. She was a little embarrassed, but she had to do whatever it took to allay Aslan’s suspicions.

But Aslan’s expression became even more despairing. He carefully grasped Vivian’s hand that was lying on the silk blanket.

“I heard it from Dylan. From the time you had a seizure in the shopping district to the time you went to see Johannes because you couldn’t bear the pain.”

“…”

“If it was that hard, I can’t even confidently say such a simple thing as if I should have complained instead of holding back. “I don’t have the courage to see your face.”

Vivian still blinked.

This time she didn’t mean to. She had no idea what Aslan was talking about, so she could only blink.

‘Still, do you think Dylan got his point across well?’

Aslan’s eyes just now seemed not to be accusatory, but pitiful. Even though she was his fiancé, whom he kept by his side for political reasons, if she kept clashing with him, he would develop an unpleasant affection for her. It’s already been a few months since they had been living under the same roof.

“I feel so sorry for you. Even though I knew that I had a bad political relationship with Her Royal Highness, I went to see him out of selfishness.”

“Don’t think like that. I’m fine, so just think about getting better.”

Aslan’s response was more generous than expected. It was almost pointless to worry that he might doubt his true intentions. But he also knocked on the stone bridge and told her to cross it.

Vivian decided to get a confirmation before proceeding with the work in earnest.

“I heard from Dylan that Aslan also tried to contact the doctor. However, I didn’t tell you in advance because I was afraid you would be disappointed if the rumor wasn’t true…”

“He said something useless to you. He lost the game to Johannes.”

Aslan massaged the back of her neck as if ignoring her gaze. It was just an insignificant movement, but the muscles and tendons bulged menacingly beneath her thin shirt. Vivian tried to ignore the nightmare of the past that was stuck in those muscles and gently patted the back of his hand.

“It’s not useless. I learned that Aslan worked hard for her.”

“…”

“To me, the process is as important as the result. You who have lived on the battlefield might think I’m stupid.”

“Really, I see.”

Aslan thought her words over and over again, like someone who had heard something difficult to understand. There was a slight confusion within him, and a sense of comfort that even he could not understand. Meanwhile, Vivian was so internally cheering with joy that she did not notice his change.

‘It’s okay. Now I can play around with the quack as I please, and it won’t have anything to do with Aslan!’

A smile that she couldn’t hide actually leaked out. The corners of her mouth rose in a seductive curve.

‘But why does Aslan look at me like that?’

Vivian sensed a strange atmosphere. Aslan had a gloomy look in his eyes as if he was going to knock her down and eat her.

‘Why are you looking at the pork tenderloin steak again? Are you an animal…?’

In any case, he was an opponent who could not relax even for a moment. Vivian quickly glossed over the reason for her smile.

“I hope it is effective against lung disease as rumored. Then we can have a great coming-of-age ceremony soon, right?”

“I’m sure it will.”

Aslan lazily stretched out his hand and stroked Vivian’s round forehead. Fine platinum blonde hair wrapped around his fingers. His golden eyes became darker as he stared at his fiancée. At the same time, a danger signal flashed in Vivian’s mind.

‘I have no taste, I’m human!’

Of course, if someone asked her how she knew that, she had nothing to say, but if the person in question said it didn’t taste good, what could he do?

Vivian slowly and naturally got into the blanket. She didn’t forget to mutter that she felt like she was going to die from exhaustion, meaning to disappear without notice.

“You had a hard time today. Rest well, Vivian.”

“Sleep well, too.”

Aslan, who had been wandering around the bed, finally returned to his bedroom, and Vivian, who had been suffering from the beast’s heated gaze, was able to escape the threat of the Two-Horned Steak ending.

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A few days later, news came that a new royal doctor had been appointed to the Minerva Public Hospital in the capital.

‘Johannes, you really used your brain.’

After finishing her morning bath, Vivian was lost in thought as she looked through the newspaper the chamberlain had brought.

‘This is quite an unconventional greeting. The medical doctor who only treats the royal family has been moved to a public hospital, so if we take advantage of this fact, we can increase his approval ratings…’

It would not have been enough to write a special article about the treatment of an incurable disease, but the newspaper did not describe the history at all.

Johannes must have considered the possibility that the man’s medical skills might not live up to expectations.

‘Even if a problem arises, you can just cut it off because it has nothing to do with you, and if your medical skills are truly excellent, you will be praised for being humble when it becomes known later.’

The only information written in the newspaper was that the new doctor was a former royal doctor and was to treat nobles and citizens with his generous royal treatment.

‘That doesn’t mean I can sit still.’

People who enjoyed exceptional privileges usually didn’t spread the word about it. Johannes must have thought he would too. If you are a noble from a prestigious family, it was natural to be concerned about the attention and reputation of those around you.

‘I’m sorry, but I have no such pride.’

After everything was over, she could wash her identity and go to a resort in the south, and her past self will be goodbye!

“I need to get ready to go out. Aslan entered the imperial palace at dawn?”

“Yes, there is official business that needs to be handled urgently regarding the Northern Territory. He said he was sorry for not being able to keep his morning appointment with Madam.”

It seemed like something was happening in the Blackford area these days. Aslan often met his vassals or entered the imperial palace.

‘Thanks to you, it’s become easier for me to move.’

Vivian put down the newspaper and stood up from the sofa.

“I have to go to the hospital, so hurry up and get ready. It’s a solemn place, so we’ll only take Dylan as an escort.”

“Yes, ma’am.”

The chamberlain seemed to have been informed about the doctor in advance. Preparations for going out proceeded smoothly without any further questions.

Vivian entered the dressing room and chose a light blue dress. The design was simple, but the fabric used was of the highest quality, difficult to find even in the imperial family. Even if the average person didn’t know it, anyone with discerning eyes would not be able to recognize it.

Vivian asked Dylan as a test.

“Do you like my dress?”

“Oh my god, I guess you don’t even have the energy to put on a dress. This shabby thing with no decoration…”

Just like this.

Vivian got into the carriage without even bothering to tell him the amazing price of the dress. The pitiful look in Dylan’s eyes bothered her a bit, but he decided to ignore it.

The scenery outside the window changed quickly. The streets, which had been filled with buildings and people, gradually became deserted, and we entered a forest area that resembled a villa. It was hard to believe that it was the same capital.

‘Looking at it, it really looks like a villa. Is it a combination of the role of a hospital and a nursing home?’

A huge, opulent, milky-white building appeared over the horizon. She wondered why nobles who had family doctors bothered to visit the hospital, but as soon as she saw the exterior, her question was immediately resolved.

After running a little more, they finally arrived at the hospital entrance.

“Ma’am, watch your step.”

Vivian got out of the carriage, listening to Dylan’s loud and fussing instructions in one ear. Thanks to Dylan’s constant nagging, many people around her were focused on her even before she got off.

‘Very good.’

It was the moment she quietly raised the corner of her mouth and stepped out of the carriage. The eyes of everyone around them suddenly opened.

The light blue dress shimmered softly in the midday sunlight. It made Vivian’s already white and delicate skin look even more dazzling and pale. As planned, half of the people were captivated by the amazing price range of the dress, while the other half were unexpectedly captivated by her alluring beauty.

 

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Translator Note:

This week you will have a double release of this novel 😉