I'm Trying to End This Possession

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Danae Windsor. The lady of the Windsor dukedom. A woman called a saintess for purifying the ‘Rotten Land,’ a great calamity. However, this body was nothing before Yeon Dana possessed it. Because it had been lying down like a vegetative person all its life. No, actually, it was worse than a vegetative state.

 

This body was an empty shell. A patient of the rare ‘Doll Disease,’ born as a body without a soul, an empty vessel. After possessing this empty vessel-like body, I did my best to live through it. And this was how I was evaluated.

 

“Danae Windsor? The woman who purified the rotten land?”

 

“Lady Danae always seems to be smiling. I don’t think I’ve ever seen her not smiling.”

 

“She’s incredibly kind. Almost to the point of being a pushover to those close to her.”

 

“That woman, she gives her all to her family, doesn’t she?”

 

That was the evaluation of ‘Danae Windsor.’ For the 6 years I possessed this body, I lived that way. As a gentle, caring woman, soft as a lamb. But, when living as Yeon Dana, it was quite… Actually, it’s completely the opposite.

 

“Yeon Dana? That crazy b*tch?”

 

“That woman, she’s not right in the head. She does unspeakable things with a smile. Definitely has a dual personality.”

 

“She’s heartless. Her blood must have run cold.”

 

“That’s right. She’s even scarier because she looks kind outwardly.”

 

Yeon Dana lived that way. Harshly and coldly. I had no choice but to live that way. It was because I had too many enemies around me.

 

‘Yeon Dana’ was the illegitimate child of a wealthy family. From a young age, I was scorned by adult relatives and ostracized by my cousins. And in those hardships, I was forged as strong as steel. I became stronger. Eventually, I crushed all my formidable relatives and seized victory.

 

“Yeon Dana. You’re the most competent of my children.”

 

Acknowledged by the head of the family, akin to a clan leader, I was the sole heir to a vast fortune. That day, I celebrated with joy.

 

Finally, I’ve won. I’ve trampled those relatives who tried to crush me, and finally, I’ve won! Truly, it was the best moment of my life, but… At that moment, I was alone. The silence was so profound.

 

Unable to bear the loneliness, I turned on the TV. Coincidentally, a documentary about a family living in a cramped room was playing. A cramped room, a family huddled together eating oranges…

 

[Wahahaha!]

 

Hearing that laughter, I was seized with an intense desire. I want that.

 

That thing on the TV.

 

That laughter. That happiness. That warmth. I want it too.

 

But that was the one thing I could never have. Not with money, not with effort. So, when I possessed the body of ‘Danae Windsor,’ I made up my mind to get what was missing from my previous life.

 

Let’s live differently. There’s no need to grit my teeth and struggle like in my own world, right?

 

So, when she possessed the ‘Danae Windsor’ body, she resolved to fill what was missing from her previous life.

 

I couldn’t even imagine being called a ‘pushover,’ but it was okay. I finally had what I longed for. That’s why when I read the ‘Memories of the Land,’ I just ignored it.

 

The land didn’t just reveal the existence of holy relics. Hidden mines, rare resources, and all sorts of secrets and tremendous information witnessed by the land were revealed to me. But…

 

Let’s just leave it be.

 

Surely, if I was still ‘Yeon Dana,’ I would have exploited that information to the fullest. Blackmail someone with their weaknesses to make them my subordinates, or secure and excavate a bonanza. The woman who craved success and was obsessed with money. But…

 

That’s the old me. I’ve been purified.

 

This time, let’s just live in affection. There’s plenty of money in my world anyway, so why bother with troublesome things?

 

That’s right. Yeon Dana’s life is my dark history.

 

…or so I thought.

 

Little did I know that thought would become my dark history.

 

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The night I realized she had been deceived, I stood in front of a mirror. With cascading silver hair and gentle green eyes, the woman in the mirror looked back at me.

 

“Danae Windsor.”

 

I had lived happily in this body. But…

 

I was going to return to my original world. Because no matter how happy, no matter how much I love the people here, still… this is not my body. I couldn’t bear the thought of living my entire life with that disparity. So, despite the pain, I decided to leave.

 

They held me back so much.

 

I couldn’t bring myself to leave them behind, crying. So, I decided to stay…

 

“You can’t go anywhere now!”

 

I chuckled at the memory of Raios’s arrogant shout.

 

“What will you do? You have no choice but to adapt.”

 

Rumie’s words followed.

 

Changing their attitude now that the gate of dimensions is closed? I guess this is possible because they believe it will reopen only after a hundred years.

 

There’s a saying in my world. If you can’t stand the heat, get out of the kitchen.  Then I’ll leave this world, you disgusting b*stards.

 

First, let’s get the holy relic. With the power of that relic, which contains divine power, I can open the gate of dimensions and return to my original body. And that holy relic was close. Very close, right here— In the Windsor mansion.

 

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“I’m sorry!”

 

The next day, Alice came to see me.

 

“I’m sorry, Sister Dana. I’m really sorry.”

 

I looked at Allice quietly.

 

Allice Windsor. Danae’s cousin sister. I truly loved her. Her pink cloud-like hair, her cute rabbit-like face, and her unique lisping speech, I loved it all. But now…

 

“I’m sorry, Sister. I really am.”

 

She’s just disgusting b*tch.

 

“I didn’t want to do this. I didn’t want to hurt you, but… I just couldn’t stop, Sister Dana. I just couldn’t.”

 

Then, like a tragic heroine, she knelt down and began to sob.

 

“Love doesn’t work the way you want it to, right? You’ve been in love before, so you know, right?”

 

“…”

 

“You know how irrational love can make you behave. You were blinded by love too, and that’s why you stayed in this world…”

 

“…”

 

“I’m really sorry, Sister. Sob, sob, I’m sorry.”

 

“…”

 

“I’m sorry for deceiving you, but…”

 

Allice clenched her fists tightly and lifted her head. “I’m not sorry for loving His Highness.”

 

“…”

 

“My love is not a sin.”

 

At that moment, I burst out laughing. I couldn’t help but laugh.

 

“If it’s not a sin, why did you meet in secret?” So I asked with my usual bright smile.

 

“Si-Sister?”

 

“That’s right. If it’s not a sin, why were you hiding under the desk? Like a rat.”

 

Hearing that, Allice’s face turned red.

 

“Sister, calling someone a rat… That’s too harsh for a person.”

 

Oh, is that so? Was my comment too harsh? For some reason, I kept laughing, finding the situation utterly ridiculous.

 

I loved this kind of girl all this time?

 

It felt like waking up from a deep hypnosis. I can’t believe I sincerely loved someone like this.

 

It’s all because I was a fool.

 

I readily admitted it. I was deceived. Completely and utterly fooled like a naive newcomer.

 

Well, I was practically a newcomer.

 

Never having experienced family love or romantic love, a beginner.

 

Well, that’s enough. Knowing I was a fool, I just needed to stop being foolish.

 

I glanced at the clock. It had been 5 minutes since Allice arrived. I deliberately didn’t send her away. Letting her cry and whine for 5 minutes…

 

It’s about time to start.

 

I stood up from my chair. 

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