I’m the Main Character’s Child

“It looks delicious…….” 

Her thoughts popped out of her mouth without even realizing it.

At that moment, the rustling sound of the pen seemed to have stopped for a while, but now she didn’t want to care much about it. She looked at the ceiling of the office while leaning on the sofa.

She closed her eyes thinking it would be great to take a nap.

At that time, a shadow fell over her face, and she heard a clattering sound.

 ”Huh?” 

She opened her eyes and turned her head toward the sound. She saw Cardin sitting on the sofa across from her, and the plate of bread was placed in front of her. When she stared at Cardin, wondering what was going on, he quietly said while avoiding her eyes,

“Eat.”

Oh my God, Cardin gave me bread. I’m surprised that he simply gave me bread.

Cardin, who kept his mouth shut like a clam every day and was afraid to say a word or two when asked, came to her first and handed her bread.

“Are you giving it to me?”

She carefully lifted the bread with both hands and asked Cardin with an emotional face.

Cardin slightly frowned.

“Eat……it’s too much to eat –”

The first bread Cardin gave me.

She was looking at her hands holding the bread preciously.

She was wondering if she could really eat the bread, but Cardin, who was watching her, opened his mouth.

“I’ll give you as much bread as you want, so just eat.”

‘Why did I suddenly feel uncomfortable?’

Cardin looked a little down. The wrinkles caught in the middle of his forehead also deepened.

“Yes.”

For the first time, she was so overwhelmed to sit and talk with Cardin in the office.

The bread she took a bite of melted in her mouth. It was so sweet that her eyes opened wide and so she put the leftover bread in her mouth.

Even without looking in the mirror, she knew her cheeks became plump like crucian carp.

She talked to Cardin, ate delicious bread, and so on……

“Hehe.”

A silly smile came out. The bread still filled her mouth, so she chewed hard.

“People might think it’s your first-time eating bread.”

“Huh?”

“Eat it all and tell me……..”

‘What I ate here every day was bread. It was cold and hard bread.’

She fell in love with the soft texture that is completely different from the bread she has eaten so far.

Suddenly, Cardin was pouring water in front of her. An unexpected smile came out.

As a reward for reaching out first, I decided to approach him a little more.

“Thank you. Papa….”

“…….”

From now on, she decided to upgrade the name of Cardin to the next level.

Somehow, a corner of her heart tickled.

She couldn’t stand the feeling, so she shook both feet hard back and forth.

The bread I ate today was the most delicious bread I’ve ever eaten.

Cardin was watching her drink tea across from her.

It was the first time we were together this long.

I thought Cardin would go see the documents again, but he was still sitting across from me even after I finished eating the bread.

I decided not to miss this opportunity.

“Papa.”

“……..”

“Papa.”

“… Why?”

It was still hard to hear an answer at once, but it was okay. At this time, I thought I could ask what I’ve been curious about so far.

“Papa, I…….”

“……….”

“What’s my name?”

“What?”

Cardin’s face, who was sitting opposite him, showed severe emotional agitation.

Cardin’s pupils were swaying with confusion.

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“……….”

Cardin did not even move as he held the teacup.

In fact, I have wanted to ask Cardin since I first met him.

Even the nanny who took care of me called me “Princess,” but did not tell me the name that a person should have.

No, she couldn’t tell me.

From the time the memories of my previous life returned, I felt relieved to reveal my questions in person.

“What’s my name?”

I asked Cardin again, who looked somewhat absent-minded.

Cardin looked at me.

But I felt that he was not looking at me with certainty.

What is he looking at?

I wonder if my name didn’t exist from the beginning? Then, it was a shock in its own way.

Every object always has a name.

I hoped that Cardin’s silent mouth would not open.

If what I was thinking was really true, I thought it would be better not to listen.

I bowed my head and pulled the decorative fur on the sofa. Even so, all that came out was dust.

“……There is.”

“Huh?”

“Your name…”

I quickly tilted my head to the voice I heard above my head.

I don’t know why, but Cardin’s gaze was fixed on my face.

“I have a name? Really…?”

I can’t believe I had a name. A name that even the nanny didn’t know!

I was so excited that I could finally know my name that my butt was fluttering.

‘As expected, there’s no way I don’t have a name.’

“……..Yes, its-”

“Hurry up and tell me!”

Cardin looked at me, shaking up and down, repeatedly closing my mouth a few times.

What makes him hesitate? I waited patiently.

Soon after, a voice that seemed to rustle like a dry leaf rang out in the quiet office on an autumn day.

“Your name is…”

“Yes, my name is!”

My neck was naturally tense.

“…It’s Emeliette Bardion.”

“Oh!”

“It means shining with love.”

Cool. It was an unexpectedly wonderful name.

Kardin gave me my name and bowed his head again like a sinner.

Cardin’s hands, which were held on his knees, were seen shaking weakly.

Although these words don’t match, I somehow felt like Cardin was scared of something.

I talked to Cardin to offset the somehow heavy atmosphere.

“Did Papa name me?”

“It’s not me.”

“Then?”

“……..”

Cardin’s mouth, which had been answering well so far, closed again.

Then he whispered in a small voice enough to barely hear him.

“You… Someone who loved you more than anyone else in the world.”

I felt like I was hit on the head by that word.

At first glance, I noticed who Cardin was talking about.

What has Cardin been thinking about looking at me so far?

I now understand why it felt like he was looking at a distant place even when he looked at me sometimes.

“Did Papa love her a lot?”

It was a question that I didn’t even need to ask, but I asked.

If I avoid this topic now, my relationship with Cardin will be like walking on the border of unstable ice sheets.

“You’re asking a lot.”

Cardin avoided answering, but that was enough for now.  The mere fact that he didn’t walk away means that Cardin cares enough about me.

“Papa.”

“Why?”

“I like this name so much. Hehe.”

I smiled and looked at Cardin.

For a moment, Cardin’s eyes fluttered and shook.

“Your name is…….”

Cardin opened his mouth with his eyes fixed on the cold tea.

“Huh?”

“It’s not that you don’t have a name. You had it even before you were born.”

What do you want to talk about?

Cardin looked at my face for a moment and continued the story. His appearance somehow looked precarious and difficult.

“Many things have happened since you were born. So,”

Cardin clapped his mouth several times, hesitatingly, sweeping down the area around his mouth with his palm.

‘If it’s a lot of things, then Reina’s death will be included.’

“It’s my fault that no one knew your name.”

‘Is Cardin apologizing to me right now? No one knew my name?’

Seeing Cardin dismissing a lot and saying it was his fault, an indescribable feeling rushed.

She was careful to even guess what he was thinking and apologizing to me now.

Cardin shut up again after saying that.

I could see a little why he apologized to me.

Cardin was feeling guilty now.

“Papa.”

“………”

He’s not answering again.

“Papa!”

“…yes.”

“Thank you for telling me my name.”

I smiled as brightly as I could and thanked Cardin.

But the inside became complicated like a whirlwind.

I felt like someone hit the corner of my head as hard as they could.

I’ve been overlooking it so far. That Cardin in front of me is not just a cool male protagonist that exists in a book.

He was a person who lived in reality who was left by the woman he loved.

Cardin’s childhood, which she had only encountered in the book, was described in just a few lines: “It was lonely and miserable.”

The only part of Cardin’s occasional recollection of his past was the story of having to endure bloody fights and pain to become a duke.

There was no happy story in Cardin’s childhood where he did not learn emotions.

I read the many stories from meeting Reina until he learned the feeling of love, sometimes with a sad and sometimes excited heart.

But Cardin, who exists in front of me, was a real person who actually went through all that.

So far, I have never thought about how Cardin felt after losing Reina and how he felt whenever he saw me taking over Reina and his blood.

Of course, just because there was such a reason, it did not mean that I forgive them for neglecting my young self so far.

However, there was something unclear about the problem, so I decided to get to know it gradually.

“I’m sorry. Cardin”

She apologized with regret for her attitude of simply thinking that the pain he has suffered just exist in the book

“What do you mean?”

“Just because ……”

“You’re such a naughty kid.”

Looking at my disappointed face, Cardin laughed 

I smiled at Cardin’s laugh.