EPISODE 3.1
“No way.”
As much as I wanted to deny it, the words that poured out of his mouth were the same as what I went through after becoming Cha Ye-ryun.
Park Eun-woo was smiling as if he understood my confusion. He had a strong conviction that I was not Cha ye-ryun.
Wasn’t I enough of a Cha-ye-ryun for him to notice?
Was my acting skills that lacking?
I thought I just needed to create a situation where the Flower of Trials wouldn’t be sanctioned.
As long as Cha Ye-ryun didn’t do anything illegal, I could avoid the ending of her going to jail at the end.
If I could do that, I could get the ending I wanted without shaking up the drama.
I put everything on the line in the hope that once the drama reaches its predetermined ending, I will be able to return to my reality.
But I wanted to have a backup plan in case I couldn’t return to reality.
But because of my actions, some of the things that Park Eun-woo had to do have completely disappeared.
‘What am I supposed to do? He had been here longer than I am. He had endured four years alone. How had he manage to hold on without going crazy? I’ve been here half as long as he was, and I’m barely holding on to my crumbling sanity.’
The thought that his words might have been a hallucination created by me, and he might have needed someone to lean on, threatened to open my mouth and swallow me whole.
“You know how Park Eunwoo’s story ends.”
“Of course. He donates his organs to Cha Yebin, who gets sick and dies.”
He said his future with a nonchalant face. As if it were someone else’s business and not his own. There wasn’t even a hint of fear in his eyes, just my unwillingness to let go of my doubts.
“But how can you accept that? Aren’t you scared? You could die.”
“I might not die.”
“How can you be sure of that? I mean, how can I accept it if you’re not the real Park Eunwoo?”
If he wasn’t the real Park Eun-woo, how could he have lived Park Eun-woo’s life so perfectly all this time and never once tried to change the drama?
I’ve been trying so hard to avoid an ending where Cha Ye-ryun rots in prison for the rest of her life.
I don’t understand his acceptance of Park Eunwoo’s life and his telling her to stop shaking the flower of trial.
That made me even more complicated to believe in him. The characters in Flower of Trials don’t reject the storyline of the drama.
If it is necessary, they do it by any means necessary. They make it irresistible.
The terrible memories I have suffered flashed through my mind like a panorama.
Ever since I entered the Flower of Trials, there have been unbearable days, and I’ve been rushed to the hospital several
times after overdosing on sleeping pills to get back to my reality.
Since the bizarre phenomenon on my engagement day, I have suffered from hallucinations and auditory hallucinations, and there have been many days when I have harmed myself.
“Ryun, Ye ryun…… what’s wrong with you, what’s wrong with you all of a sudden?”
Cha ye-ryun’s mother sobbed while holding her hand.
“……If it’s because of the engagement that you don’t want to do, I’ll do whatever it takes to cancel it.”
Cha’s father says he’ll do anything for his daughter, even if it means harming the group.
“…….”
Cha’s brother brushes his sister’s hair with a sorrowful expression. Cha’s friends and other people around her who were so sweet. It’s hard to be alone, and I ended up loving them.
But this damn world cruelly sanctioned me, as if punishing me, whenever I didn’t fulfill the absolute imperatives of what must happen in a drama.
Even Cha ye-ryun’s father used to melt at the sound of “dad” and listen to everything I said.
“Dad, why don’t you just let Ms. Han and my brother marry?”
“Ye ryun, it’s a beautiful day.”
“Dad, just let her go. She’s the one my brother loves.”
“Ye ryun, it’s a beautiful day.”
“Dad?”
“It’s a beautiful day, Ye ryun.”
‘Let’s just back off, Ye ryun. Whatever you do you won’t be heard at all.’ Even as a grown daughter, Cha’s mother insisted her on calling her mother as mom, and always said that she acted a bit stiffly.
“Mom, I think I’ll take a break from work and go on traveling.”
“Oh, how long do you want to go?”
“Well, a year or two, when everything will be over by the time I come back.”
“Oh my God, how long do you think you’ll be gone?”
“I haven’t thought about it yet.”
“Oh, my God. Then go back. Back to where you belong. Ye-ryun.”
Cha Ye Bin also loves his sister terribly, to the point where he might have a sister complex.
“Brother, do you know why I’m against Han Seo Ri?”
“No. Why are you against Ms. Seo Ri?”
“Its because you’re the male protagonist, and she’s the female protagonist. I’m the evil girl who gets in the way of you and her.”
“That’s a funny story. But Ye ryun, I don’t want you to be the villain, I want you to be the good person who helps me and Ms. Seo Ri.”
“Then, Brother, do you want me to stay out of the way and be the good girl who helps you and Ms. Han?”
“You can’t do that, Cha ye ryun. You have a job to do.”
“I knew it would come out that way, damn this flower of trials. They all turned on me when I tried to violate their absolutes. The
love, affection, and attention I was receiving. To make me feel in my bones that it was all fake. That’s how the Flower of Trials tamed me. So I couldn’t help but think that Park Eunwoo’s current behavior might have been a whim of the Flower of Trials.
The Flower of Trials might have dug a trap to make me even crazier, to push me deeper into the pit of despair.
“If you’re not Park Eun-woo, prove it, prove it because I want to believe you’re not the real Park Eunwoo of the drama.”
But I can’t let go of this , even though I’ve been beaten by the Flower of Trials time and time again. For a moment, I want to put my hope in this man who could be my escape hatch from this drama.
“Sounds funny.”
