“Ye ryun, it’s me, it’s your brother. Can’t you see that your parents are worried about you? What are you doing inside? Come out right now, you are worrying everyone in the family? Come out now and eat….”
“Ye ryun, my daughter. Open the door for me. Tell your dad what happened to you, is something wrong at work?”
Despite the efforts of my family, I tried to deny the reality of the
situation by throwing and breaking things in the room.
The names of the people claiming to be her family were the same as in the Flower of Trials script, but their faces were completely different. In the midst of that, I lost my temper and went on a rampage.
“No, no, no, how can I be Cha ye-ryun, my face, my body, my mind, everything is different from her, why am I Cha ye-ryun?”
At that time, I just wanted to escape this place and return to reality.
This is not my world, and I am not Cha Ye-ryun!
One day, after crying and locking myself into my room. When all of Cha’s family members were out of town, I heard the tearing sound of my cell phone ringing in the silence of my room.
At that moment, an eerie chill ran through my body as if the temperature in the room had dropped. I opened my eyes and stared at the phone in the corner of the room.
I raised my shaky hand and clamped my mouth over the scream that threatened to escape at any moment.
“Surely, surely it must have been switched off right?”
The cell phone, the one I’d thrown out on my first day, was broken with a shattered screen, it hadn’t even turned on.
As I stared at my phone in disbelief, unable to breathe, the ringing stopped and I heard an unfamiliar woman’s voice.
-Madan, you need to come here.
-Madam, your engagement is coming up, and you need to come and get ready.
“Aaah, aaah!!”
I crawled across the messy room in daze, picked up the fallen cell phone, and threw it back against the wall.
I threw the phone again, and again, and again, and again until I heard the woman’s voice over and over again.
-T……, blind, fast, come, fast…… Lee.’
I didn’t even realize that the broken screen was embedded into my palm, and I was bleeding, until I couldn’t hear the woman’s voice anymore. For a few minutes, I repeated the act of throwing it, screaming like a madman.
“……Huh, huh. What the hell is this……”
I stared at my phone, while breathing heavily, until I finally see a flickering light on the shattered black screen, and a clear message began to form.
[Director, you need to come here].
[Director, you need to get back here].
[Madam, you need to get here.]
[Hey, you have to come.]
[You have to come.]
[You have to come.]
[You have to come, Cha, you have to come].
That day, was the most eerie and terrifying day of my life, then I realized that this world was not normal.
In the drama Flower of Trials, which I had prepared for with all my heart and soul and watched hundreds of times. I became Cha Ye-ryun, the villainous character I was supposed to audition for.
It’s been two years since I realized that I had to live the life of cha ye-ryun in “Flower of Trials”.
During that time, I’ve been dutifully doing what the original villainess Cha Ye-ryun was forced to do.
This is because whenever I, Cha Ye-ryun, try to deviate too much from the framework of the drama, abnormal phenomena like that day occurred.
Remembering that day, I quickly pulled the car to the curb and buried my face into my hands. My body was shaking and I couldn’t breathe properly.
After two years of being forced to move like a puppet in this abnormal world, I was suffering from obsessive anxiety.
“Can I ever go back to my real word?”
I stared at my reflection in the rearview mirror.
This world was hardly different from the real world that I had lived in before. It was still my normal face and my reflection, just like that.
Sometimes I would fall into the trap of thinking that if I could just go back to my house, back to my school, back to my life, I could
get my life back.
But if I indulged in that hope and tried to escape without fulfilling the role of a secondary character, the Flower of Trials, then it would create an abnormal situation like that day and will tell me to,
“Go back. You can’t escape this drama, you are Cha Ye ryun, so you must fulfill the role of Cha Ye ryun, it’s your destiny.”
‘Why did this happen to me?’
Is it because I, an unknown actress, wanted the role of Cha so badly?
How badly did I want it so that I had this nightmare?
I wanted the role of Cha so badly that I became Cha, and this situation was so crazy.
I felt like I had been hit by a rock on the road.
“…….”
I don’t know what brought me into this world, but there was no other way for me. I had to bet my everything with the hope that if I became the secondary character and if I played the role that the Flower of Trials wanted me to play, and if I reached the
ending of the drama, I would be able to go back. That was all I could do.
Yes, I must run towards the end of this drama.
Before I lose my mind.
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