When exactly was it?
It was the day when she got beaten up by Margosia as badly as ever, and limped away with a broken ankle.
[You always come home hurt, don’t you?]
Since then, he has appeared at every most unbearable moments.
Just like now.
“Again?”
“…….”
“Not again.”
“…….”
“You’re such an idiot.”
She knew immediately who the voice was.
” Callion Blissias.”
At the sight of his face, She closed her eyes in blurring consciousness.
It was the summer vacation of her second year at the Academy.
She was suffering from a terrible unrequited love.
Under the big, green tree on a spring day when there was a particularly cool breeze.
When She came to her senses she found him standing there, smiling at her.
“You seem to be mistaken, but resignation is bad. Do you believe that if you endure it so much, there will be someone who will appreciate it one day?”
“…….”
“Don’t be embarrassed yourself. If you’re struggling, always say you’re struggling. It’s not a sin to be honest.”
He closed the book he was reading and focused on her.
“Don’t be a coward to yourself.”
Even if it was just a smirk, even if it was a glance that told her she was pathetic.
but she loved every second of it.
“Live to the fullest, Louise Bartlett. Don’t live half-heartedly like you’re doing now.”
“……why?”
“Why, because you’re too good for that kind of life.”
She wanted to remember, even if it was an unreachable love.
The memories, the smells, the spring breeze that tickled her hair.
She swear she’ll never forget.
Maybe for the rest of her life, even when time passes and everything fades away…….
Maybe that’s why that scene has visited her dreams so many times.
It’s been a long time since she graduated from the academy with mixed grades and returned to the countryside where no one knows her.
She thought she could never see him face to face again.
He will be married to his fiancée, and her first love has failed.
* * *
But…… what is this?
“Are you awake?”
She blinked.
“No matter how much You hate me. Don’t you think that’s a little harsh? You pass out as soon as I bring you in front of the mansion.”
Blink.
“It’s good to be in my arms, but what should I do if you lose your mind?”
“…… hic?”
Her vision blurred.
Oh, no, it wasn’t a dream!
“This is real!”
Her eyes flickered open, and then they were clear.
Reality finally set in.
She could see the white ceiling, and next to it was her first love, or Callion, sitting on the bed.
He looked as if he was holding back his anger.
“You slept well.”
“Ah…… that, that.”
“I’m sorry. I’ve had a heart attack all this time, you know?”
He sounded rather murderous for a man who was so unhappy.
“I struggled to find the person who secretly ran away, and she lost her memory.”
Callion murmured in a low voice.
“You’re falling asleep. Someone’s going to be upset, but you’re falling asleep…”
She shuddered at the sound of his voice, like he was repeating a curse.
It was weirder than that.
‘Was that all about me?’
he said I’ve lost my memory since a while ago, I ran away secretly. The conversation was strangely tangled.
“I’m talking to you. Where the hell are you looking?”
Crawling over to the bed, Calion stepped closer and looked down at me.
His sculpted features remained unchanged, and his eyes narrowed slightly.
“Humph.
Her ears flared up.
Why does he look so handsome even when he’s disfigured?
“No, don’t get carried away.”
Get a grip. He’s out of reach.
She muttered, trying to avoid the staring eyes.
But she really couldn’t believe what she was seeing.
“The doctor checked you out earlier, and he said you’re fine. Nothing wrong.”
“…….”
“Though your memory seems to be failing you.”
Calion shook his head in genuine sympathy.
In the midst of her confusion, he’d casually stroked her hair with his fingers.
As if he couldn’t reach any further.
Her lips parted at his rough, careful touch.
If anyone were to look, they’d think he was treating his lover.
She was more embarrassed than excited.
She wondered what to do next.
She was living a good life in the village, but suddenly she was caught, kidnapped (?) into a carriage, and given the title of married woman.
She think she had one child, too…… so…….
“I’m screwed.”
She shuffled her feet in panic under the blanket.
How the hell was she supposed to get out of this mess?
As She lay there, clutching the blanket, Calion’s fingers gradually entwined with her, and she couldn’t move a muscle.
” Louis Blissias.”
Hic.
She jerked her shoulder away from his soft but firm touch, but it was no use.
His bloodshot eyes glowed and crinkled as if he’d already had enough.
Through clenched teeth, Calion spoke.
“You can’t run away again.”
“……!”
“Just go. I’ll chase you to the ends of the earth and find you.”
She’ve never seen anyone make a threat so confidently.
“Seriously, what are you doing to me!”
She can’t believe She’ve been dragged to the Grand Duke’s house out of nowhere, and why he keeps making her part of his family.
‘We only had a brief acquaintance.’
She couldn’t believe it, and tears filled her eyes.
At this point, she was heartbroken.
She still feel like she was going to die just looking at his face.
He looked at her and said, “Why are you giving me the look of a betrayed husband?”
“Nothing, we’re not even in a relationship.”
“What?”
“We haven’t even seen each other since we graduated…….”
“Ha.”
Callion laughed, as if he was full of energy.
She felt even more frustrated that no matter how she explained it, it didn’t seem to make any sense.
It didn’t take long for the tears to start rolling down her cheeks.
“Louis?”
“…….”
“Are you crying now?”
“Hmph, ugh…….”
A tear fell from her chin and absorbed in the blanket.
Calion looked up.
His expression softened as if he’d just gotten annoyed, and he looked at her, a hint of nervousness in his eyes.
“Wait a minute, don’t cry.”
“C’mon, don’t cry.”
“No, I don’t know why you’re crying……!”
She was desperately trying to wipe away her tears with her hands.
Instead, he just sighed and tried to be nice.
She buried her face in her hands and sobbed.
Why are you being so nice, why are you giving me a pass!
What was a reunion with her first love, what was this bed, and what was an unexpected statement?
All of it, in a stranger’s house!
She didn’t want to tell him about feelings she couldn’t remember, and she didn’t want to be pressured into it either.
The whole thing just felt like a bomb to her.
“I want to go home……!”
“This is your home……?”
“No, no, no, no!”
It’s not my house, I’m not your wife who left the house, it’s not me!
“Ha ha. That’s crazy, man.”
She didn’t need it, and she was sad and frustrated.
For now, she just wanted to leave her first love and go home.
* * *
“How is she?”
“Back to sleep. She’s still in shock.”
Clink- clink.
Slowly, Calion released the doorknob from his hand.
Even at this point, he was trying his best to control his strength, in case he woke louise inside.
He knew what it was like to be weak.
He crumpled his face into a frown as he recalled a vague memory.
He’d never had to balance his magic before, except when he’d first met Louise.
She was so strong, Callion had forgotten, of course.
Oh, yes.
It was like going back to that young spring day.
Back to that foolish time when he’d wrongly assumed she was nothing more than a weak mage.
“You’ve lost all your magic now, haven’t you?”
“Maybe I’ve hidden it away somewhere.”
“If so, she’ve erased all memory of it.”
The butler, Moros, gave a bitter laugh.
“She’ve wiped everyone’s memories, including ours and yours, and then she left. There may be no way to regain your power.”
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