I Ended up Raising the Children of the Protagonists

Ainz Rainswain hid Sirena Liev, who had run away from the threat. Yes, she was afraid that Ainz would harm her, so he grabbed Rena, who was trying to escape, and Ainz spent a long time persuading her.

 

“Sirena, John is moving to make room for your return, to give you back your full ‘name’. So I will guard you while John completes all the preparations.”

 

Ainz Rainswain strictly kept his words. However, as Ainz’s wounds increased one by one, Sirena took out the Eskaya treasure she had and showed it to him.

 

She then said.

 

“Ainz, teach me the sword. If you don’t like the sword, teach me the power to move the ‘treasure’.”

 

Despite his trembling voice, Ainz held Sirena’s hand with her unwavering eyes directed at him. Ainz gave her a sword that her delicate and slender wrists could hold, and together with Sirena, they put their heads together to consider what power the treasure of Eskaya, kept by her burned-out Count Riev, could hold. did. As he placed his coat over Sirena’s shoulders as she fell asleep from exhaustion, Ainz felt her indescribable emotions. However, he ignored that nameless feeling, thinking that it was a memory from his childhood. Funny enough, Ainz Rainswain didn’t learn the name of his feelings until the very end. Only after John created a place for Sirena and Sirena finally ascended to that position and regained her full name did Ainz realize the name of that feeling.

 

It was ‘love’.

 

At the same time, he recognized his feelings for his old friend, his dearest friend. It was ‘jealousy’. Sirena and Johan were both extremely precious people to Ainz. So just seeing two people happy would make him happy. But it wasn’t like that.

 

An indescribably uglier emotion than jealousy ate away at Ainz Rainswain in an instant. The moment when Sirena Liev and John Hawes finally achieve a happy ending by vowing to live together forever. Ainz acknowledged his own ugliness. For the first time in his life, he had an obsession with wanting to keep something by his side, and an urge to destroy the person who could not stand by his side. Ainz drank several glasses of high-alcohol wine.

 

“Ainz, no matter how good the day is. You drink too much.”

 

“Ah…”

 

A thin hand grabbed his hand. Ainz raised his trembling eyes and saw the woman smiling brightly. Right now, the woman in front of him, the hand that held his hand…

 

“That’s right, Ainz, this is my first time seeing you drink this much.”

 

He wanted it, no he did not. He wanted to stand next to her, no he didn’t. The voices of two people, who must be the happiest in the world, laughing and talking, are drowned out by the loud sound of their heartbeats. Ainzr Raineswain moved his fingertips slightly.

 

She was out of sight, and no one would know that she holds her sword.

 

“No! Ainz, do you know how quiet I was when I was young?”

 

However, when her blue eyes turned towards him, Ainz distorted his face sadly.

 

“Ainz?”

 

Ignoring her calling voice, Ainz Rainswain left the reception as if running away. Eskaya’s treasure, which was briefly held in her hand, has long since disappeared.

 

“Marquis?”

 

If it hadn’t been for the voice that stopped him from running away, Ainz would have returned to his mansion. He went back to the mansion and cursed himself endlessly, swearing at himself. Ainz eventually distorted his face at the sound of her voice holding him back.

 

“Sirena…”

 

The opposite sex cries out that it was not true. Sirena didn’t call him by a superficial name like ‘Marquis’. But Ainz thought that the woman who he had captured was Shirena Liev, and he wanted to believe that.

 

The wide, surprised eyes were purple. Eyes resembling violets.

 

“Sirena.”

 

“Marquis.”

 

He would erase this from his mind, so just once, Ainz kissed her, her hair falling between his fingers. The woman looked at Ainz with shaking eyes. Ainz smiled sadly and pitifully as he looked at the woman. Ainz placed his hand on her flushed cheek and bowed her head.

 

“I’m sorry for feeling this way.”

 

It was only as time passed that Ainz Rainswain learned that the woman he had in his arms was named ‘Marchen Tiye.’

 

* * *

 

Ainz Rainswain heard a rumor that the daughter of a certain count had been having a baby outside. This was when Sirena and John, who had the same last name, asked him to be their ‘godfather’. Ainz had one of his people find out who the rumor was about. That’s how she found out that the woman he spent the night with was the main character of that story.

 

Marchen Tiye.

 

After learning the woman’s name, Ainz went to visit Count Tiye. Count Tiye, who was trying to chase away Marchen, welcomed Ainz with open arms. No one knew what Ainz Rainswain was thinking when he went to Marchen. In the complicated state of his mind when two people he loved asked him to be their godfather, how did it affect him to hear that there was a woman with a child of his own…? 

 

No one knew his mind, however, Marchen Tiye read the dry emotions in Ainz’s eyes. However, she had to take the hand that Ainz Raineswain held out for her. To protect her child. But, that was all she was. A loveless engagement, a marriage, it all happened without a hitch.

 

Ainz arranged all of violets before Marchen entered Rainswain Manor. When the blooming spring disappeared and Marchen Tiye entered the mansion under the name of ‘Rainswain’, Ainz suddenly had this thought.

 

‘You too resemble a violet.’

 

But it was only in an instant that the flower bloomed.

 

“No, no!! Oh no!! My child, my child” 

 

“Ma’am, ma’am!! Come to your senses! Hurry up and call a doctor!!”

 

Ainz Rainswain was lost in her thoughts as to what he should do in this situation. What words should he say to his wife, who was crying over the loss of her child, and how should he ‘comfort’ her? He had no answer.

 

“Master.”

 

Ainz slowly turned his head to the voice, pulling him back to reality. After Rainswain, the mansion’s old butler gave him a speechless newborn. The newborn child in his arms couldn’t even open his eyes. It was natural. Five months was a very short time for a child to be born within its mother’s womb. Ainz saw his wife receiving sedatives from the doctor’s hands. He took a step back. The door closed, and no sound was heard. His servant followed suit, but Ainz shook his head.

 

He left the mansion. Several knights followed Ainz. Ainz shook his head as expected. But they didn’t go away.

 

Lysia’s knights protected Rainswain. However, in his younger days, the knights of Lysia did not protect Ainz. However, Ainz did not blame them. His mother, who enlarged him as a child, died and disappeared, and the knights also died and disappeared. There was nothing to gain from blaming someone who was already dead.

 

Ainz let out a small sigh. When he thought about his childhood in this mansion, all that comes to mind was hunger and beatings. He stopped at the Rainswain Cemetery, behind the mansion, where his feet could not easily reach. The quick-witted employees had already prepared their seats and were waiting. Coincidentally, it was right next to the place where his mother’s name was written. Ainz immediately shook his head as he remembered his past, not even remembering when he came to visit her.

 

Ainz lowered his head and looked at his child in his arms. Was it true that the death of a child who was unable to make even a single cry of his own went on like this without even being able to hold a funeral?

 

“Ha…”

 

Her sighs, his sighs, came out mixed together. Ainz looked at his child who had stopped breathing for a very long time.

 

“Master.”

 

Ainz slowly raised his head as the voice brought him back to reality again. Frosty steam was exhaled. They placed the child in a coffin from unknown source and sprinkled dirt on it. The dirt on his hands was rubbed harshly. The servants cover the dirt.

 

A headstone with no name engraved on it was erected announcing the death of his child.

 

* * *

 

Ainz Rainswain moved according to what he had learned. This was because she grew up in a narrow, dark room for a long time. There were many things that Ainz did not receive. John and Sirena were the ones who taught him a lot of emotions and knowledge. But even they didn’t teach him things like ‘how to comfort a woman who lost her child.’

 

Of course, it was not mentioned in the book, and Ainz himself had never experienced it. So, when Ainz Rainswain wanted to show Hawes’s children to Marchen, it was a decision he made for himself. To hear the cries of the child he held in his arms and to feel its warmth, he visited the Hawess’ children. Even though he was a godfather, it was his first time meeting the children.

 

He didn’t know what he said to them or whether they said something rude. Anyway, Ainz returned to Rainswain Manor with the children and their nanny.

 

“What?”

 

Before long, Ainz realized that she had made a huge mistake with Marchen. Hearing her cry, he felt an electric need to feel her warmth. Not Marchen, but Ainz Rainswain himself. However, Ainz brought the children to Marchen as a show of pride. Her eyes, which contain the children, show fear, astonishment, and despair.

 

“What!!!”

 

The children, who were just starting to walk, stumbled and fell. Maybe it was Marchen’s scream-like cry. The cries of children filled the room. The nanny quickly hugged the children.

 

Ainz moved his lips and he spoke with difficulty.

 

“I’m going out.”

 

Her white hands holding the hem of her blanket were trembling. Ainz bit his lip again. It was not like he didn’t know what the owner of that hand was feeling right now.

 

“Get out!! Right now, right out of this room! Take those guys, those… take those kids and get out now!!”

 

Marchen did not cry. But Ainz thought she was crying. But he did not appease. No, he couldn’t. Just then, he came out of the room full of cries and ran away, taking the children he had brought with him.

 

He thought it was all he could do for his wife. That’s how they ended up saying goodbye.

 

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