I Don’t Trust My Twin Sister

Lawrence was showing courage. Her blush and the little dewdrops at the corners of her eyes told him how much trouble she was in. It was courage that Ian could not muster. It was a courage she couldn’t reach out to because it seemed like she only cared about her own feelings. Lawrence gave him that courage. She was always confident and brave. Despite her small and frail appearance, she always stood proudly, making her small back look big. Beneath her lovely and cute smile, she was hiding something even more beautiful and cool than that. It was all revealed in her actions, expressions, words, and facial expressions. Who wouldn’t like Lawrencea like that?

 

Talks about the Ajstain family had come up often these days. Then, naturally, Lawrence was mentioned. He knew she was Elsia’s twin, but he didn’t really like her because she was a cold beauty who didn’t smile, and he didn’t know she was good-looking because she was overshadowed by her younger sister, but now that he saw it, it’s not like that at all.

 

‘If Grand Duke Berdian wasn’t by her side, she would have taken the initiative to exchange marriage talks.’

 

Whenever he heard the words, she used to think that it was a good thing he attended the coming-of-age party. Since when did he start to notice Lawrence? Since when did she come into his arms? He pondered for a while, but he could only think of one thing.

 

“Your Excellency Grand Duke Berdian. I will take care of that debt. You will owe me your debt instead.”

 

She proudly presented the contract. Maybe she had everything taken away from that one look. That was Lawrence. It was ridiculous. She liked him because he invested her money wisely. Even though he was a snobbish person, he couldn’t be this snobbish. But he couldn’t hide it. At that time, Lawrence was dazzlingly confident and she was gorgeous. To the extent that she was so strongly imprinted in Ian’s mind, Lawrence, the girl who only showed her confident appearance, gathered courage once again and hoped for an answer from the coward, Ian. Her face was red, as if she was shy, and her tears were welling up, as if she was about to burst into tears. Her regret overtook her as her voice leaked out so quietly that it could not be heard. She mustered up courage, but how much anxiety and fear she must have felt at that moment. He guessed she felt as much as he did. Ian held Lawrence in his arms and quietly placed his cheek against her head, feeling her body heat. He closed his eyes and opened his mouth with a slight tremor.

 

“…don’t go.”

 

A word that contained his heart, and a word that she truly wanted to say beyond these words, flowed through the waves of the sea and reached the white sand beach called Lawrence.

 

“Don’t go, Lawrence.”

 

‘I like you. So don’t leave.’

 

At his last whisper, Lawrence buried her face in his broad shoulder.

 

* * *

 

Ian responded with a hug to the words he said with the readiness to lose everything. Unable to hold back the sigh that came over me as I was hugged by that wide and warm chest, I let out a sigh. Tears flowed little by little and she wetted his shoulders. I had promised myself that he would never cry or be sad. There was no assumption anywhere that my true feelings would be conveyed to him and he would return to happiness. However… It was inevitable that the tears I had been holding back would burst out. I cried for a really long time.

 

I didn’t open my mouth and make a loud noise, nor did I shed a ton of tears. I just held him on my shoulder and let go of the feelings that were not reciprocated in the past. I thought I would never be able to believe and trust someone again and form a relationship beyond that of a friend or colleague. It wasn’t that I couldn’t trust the man, but I couldn’t trust the man himself. I was surprised that I had opened up my heart, but at the same time, I was grateful to this plan for tapping into my heart.

 

Ian whispered in my ear in a wet voice.

 

“I’m sorry… for making you speak first.”

 

And the sound of his voice saying, “Thank you, for giving me courage,” made me cry something deep inside me. What was important was that we just shared our thoughts without any suspicion or hatred towards him, and now we exchanged those feelings. I reached out my hand and hugged his waist tightly. It felt like a fantasy, like I was going to run away somewhere. So I hugged him as if I was trying to force him to hold me. Ian calmly accepted my coercion and stroked his head with a warm hand. His hands were so warm that I felt relieved for a moment, and when I was about to collapse, he caught me and held me. I clung to him all the way out of the garden in his arms and on horseback. Being able to rely on someone, being able to share my feelings with someone. It was so unfamiliar because it was my first time experiencing it. So far, the feelings have been one-sided. A feeling similar to unrequited love. After my grandfather passed away, my river, which had nowhere to turn, was quietly embraced by the sea called Ian. When I slightly raised my head and saw him, Ian seemed to sense my gaze while leading his horse skillfully, and lowered his head and gave me an extremely warm smile. While the stars and moonlight were falling in the dark night, his eyes contained me completely.

 

‘Why?’

 

Ian didn’t raise his voice. Only his mouth moved, shaking his head and moving his mouth like that while wrapping his arms around his neck.

 

‘Because I like it.’

 

Ian chuckled and slightly lowered his head to my side, and this time he spoke.

 

“This is the first time. You said you liked me while looking at me.”

 

Was it? I tilted my head. I definitely didn’t have a lot to express my emotions. He showed his violent side a lot to his younger brother, but tried to hide his thoughts and feelings from others, as if suppressing his instincts as much as possible. Because that was a virtue I needed to have while running a business and leading a family. I kept thinking about the past. There were many things I said to Ian, but most of them were business-like. Otherwise, all I could do was vent my dissatisfaction. good night. Has he never spoken? No, it was there. He gave me a kiss. Shouldn’t that be seen as an expression of feeling that something is good?

 

“So I like you too.”

 

Ian whispered in my ear with a giggling laugh. My eyes widened as his lips lightly brushed my cheek. My cheeks were itchy. Ian was smiling. His bangs swayed in the blowing wind. My eyes fell on his forehead. Umm… even in this situation, it’s a forehead. Ian rolled his eyes as I stared at him intently, and he grinned and flipped his bangs.

 

“What do you think? Do you like it?”

 

“Oh that…”

 

‘Don’t open it suddenly! Don’t you suddenly show your face without warning? Don’t you suddenly show your forehead? It’s not good for my heart!!’

 

The sight of him smiling under the moonlight of the night sky was like a painting. The sexy devil was smiling, his playful smile had turned into a seductive one, and his round eyes were gently seducing me. The image of him opening his forehead for the first time came to mind again and my heart pounded. Crazy now!

 

“S-get down. Quickly.”

 

“Why? You don’t like it? You like it when I raise my forehead.”

 

“When did I?!”

 

When I was stabbed for no reason and screamed, Ian shrugged his shoulders. By the way, is it okay to talk to me while making eye contact? Isn’t this what I bought? Feeling that I was too defenseless, I turned my eyes to look at the road ahead. Even though the speed was quite high, there was almost no feeling of shaking up and down. Interesting, this thing.

 

“Look. Don’t look anywhere else, look at me.”

 

A hand seemed to touch his chin and gently pulled it away. Hoop…! Ian’s eyes were right in front of the returning eyes. It was so close that my breath could touch it. He looked at me with a slightly annoyed look on his face and quietly opened his mouth. ha. A small sound of breathing came out and tickled my cheek.

 

“Do you like it when I see my forehead?”

 

“It’s not like that…”

 

“I’ve been curious since last time. As soon as I saw your forehead, you ran away. Why was that? Was it because you’re scared, or is there another reason?”

 

“Me?”

 

I closed my eyes tightly.

 

“It’s close.”

 

I heard the sound of the wind blowing so I glanced over and saw Ian with a puzzled expression on his face. He quickly opened his mouth again.

 

“Well, that’s not true. If it happens so suddenly, I can’t help but be embarrassed because I am also human.”

 

“What?”

 

Ian opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something, but as if there was no proper answer, he tilted his head and spread the distance between them. Phew… If it was too close, it bothered me more than anything else that I didn’t care about. Like the smell that comes from eating an unhealthy meal and not brushing your teeth cleanly.

 

“I’m embarrassed too. I don’t like being close to you, but it would be nice if you give me a little signal…”

 

I guessed so. I spoke slowly to Ian, who was looking at me with a confused look on his face. The expression on your face is more serious than you think? Why did he do that?

 

“Ian?”

 

“…I wonder if that’s true.”

 

Ian opened his lips and spat out the words very slowly and deliberately, like a man moving his chess pieces after playing his chess piece.

 

“Have you often been embarrassed by something I did??

 

“How much?”

 

“Ian, you do that often. You suddenly push your face in, come closer, and give a kiss…?”

 

Even though I did kiss, Ian basically liked to press his body into me. Although his expressions were explicit, his actions were actually explicit. That surprised him so much…Was it unpleasant? Just a moment ago, he looked sexy, like a night devil, but now he hesitated and watched me. My eyes rolled around. Where did your confident appearance go? At the moment when I was having trouble adjusting to the atmosphere, which was so different that I wondered if it was the same person, Ian carefully opened his lips.

 

“Sorry…?”

 

The word that came out between carefully opened lips was an apology. So why was Ian ringing the bell? But was there something wrong with me that this is cute? It wasn’t the Ian I usually knew, but something new, so it was fun, funny, and cute. I found it cute that the big man was confused by every word I said, so I just stared at him. When I smiled, Ian’s expression became brighter. I stabbed Ian in the heart with my finger.

 

“It’s okay. I was startled and my heart was pounding, but it wasn’t unpleasant. But if you go too far, my lifespan may be shortened, so please come in with a little warning. Understood?”

 

“Uhm… I’ll do that.”

 

I found it cute that he nodded obediently, so I raised my hand and stroked his head, and I saw his eyes turn brown. No big deal?

 

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