I quickly pushed him away. Pervin obediently left my body, but his persistent gaze on me continued. I sniffed myself. It seemed like it smelled something. This scent, which was thick yet pleasant to the nose, was similar to the scent of musk. But I’ve only sprayed light flower-scented perfume, I’ve never sprayed such a strong perfume. Why does it smell like this? An absurd snort was heard from afar. Pervin took a step closer to me.
“Was this your intention from the beginning?”
“I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about.”
“Excuse me for a moment. I’ll ask for your understanding in advance, so please don’t pull out my hair.”
Pervin bent down and lifted the bottom of her dress. He began to look under her skirt with quick movements. The man’s cold fingers traced his legs and then his thighs. I was so shocked that I almost grabbed his hair.
“What are you doing?”
He didn’t care and took something off my skirt. What he was holding in his hand was a small musk pouch. It was very small and light, and was hanging as if it were not there. After looking at the unfamiliar musk pouch for a moment, I realized that it had been given to me by Mrs. Tilly with a smile of her conversion. Why did I completely forget about that? My bewildered eyes met his dark green eyes. Pervin smiled languidly, as if he knew that would happen.
“It’s musk made from the sachet of a precious white deer that lives in the north. What on earth were you thinking, you?”
Even without saying a word, there was a suffocating tension between us. There was a tension that felt like it would explode if anyone even touched it. I bit my trembling lip and tried to calm myself.
“I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about, I. This is what Mrs. Tilly gave me when she dressed me up.”
“You’re good at making excuses. The musk pouch has been a method used by women to seduce men for generations. And she heard that the musk of the white deer is especially strong and effective, so much so that women try to get it.”
Pervin threw the musk bag back. A musk sac fell behind the bed in the distance. I was thinking about going to pick it up, but I got caught up in Pervin’s gaze wandering over my body. He looked at my clothes and his voice became even stronger.
“I have all the conditions to be very tempting. Naked clothes, seductive smells, visual stimulation.”
“No, this is because the maids carefully dressed me up, and I promised to keep this look until the evening. That’s not what I meant.”
“What are you talking about?”
“So you kept looking like this because you wanted the maids to see you like this?”
“Sure.”
Even in my opinion, it was a very light reason, and Pervin also laughed lightly as if it was absurd. He suddenly lowered his head towards me.
“Then you must grant my wish, Irwen.”
“Wish… What are you talking about?”
“You grant the maids’ wishes, but what about me, the husband?”
The look in his eyes when he looked at me became dangerously dark. Cold sweat started running down the back of my neck. If I had known this would happen, I wouldn’t have worn that musk bag! No, Pervin came home early in the first place, which is why I got this sad month, right? It’s nice that you came home, but why did you bring about this situation by looking for me yourself instead of having the servants find me? Before I could gather my thoughts, Pervin walked towards me. I only waved my legs a few times, and before I knew it, he was coming closer to me. at that time. In an instant, he took me in his arms and headed to bed. Before I could do anything, he was already on top of me. Even though I can clearly feel the soft bed on my back, the dangerous gaze of an angry man above me is trapped in me. I just bit my lip. Pervin took a deep breath. His strong legs that had been squeezing my body tightened even more. His hair, which was always neatly organized, was flowing down haphazardly. I glared at him with the utmost controlled anger in my eyes. Because I was nervous, my voice came out like a whisper.
“Let me go.”
“What if you don’t like it?”
He leaned close to me. His deep green eyes were burning with an intense emotion that he could not hide. One span, two spans. Before I knew it, his lips were tickling my neck. Without realizing it, I bit his lip even harder.
“They’ll be looking for me in the mansion.”
“I’m with you, do you think they’ll find you? There’s no shame in a married couple being together, Irwen.”
Pervin raised his head and looked down at me as if laughing. I wanted to get out of this dangerous situation, so I said whatever I could.
“You, watch this thing called Chetong. Would a man named the Duke ever want to embrace a woman in a remote cabin like this? I think it’s no different from an animal… … .”
Before I could finish speaking, Pervin lay down next to me.
“Beast? Do you really know what an animal is?”
“Why else are you attacking me like this?”
“Don’t provoke me, Irwen.”
Pervin growled lowly. If I provoked him a little more, he would get so angry that he would leave the cabin. I decided to take a risk.
“You see, if you’re not forcing me to do this, then why…?”
He jumped up from the bed on his back and climbed on top of me again. He seemed frustrated and took off the outer clothes he was wearing. The clothes he had taken off were piled up one by one on the floor. Black uniform top, white dress shirt. Before I knew it, all I could see was a slender upper body armed with well-sculpted muscles. It’s definitely as white as tofu, and its body has nice-looking muscles all over it, as if it’s angry. As he was breathing heavily, probably because he was angry, I could see his wide chest moving up and down. Without realizing it, I slapped my red face with my hand. sudden. Per Vin bent down and clasped my right hand.
“You were the one who provoked me first.”
He played with my hand with his interlaced fingers. And then he suddenly raised his left hand. As he placed his large hand on my face, I unconsciously closed my eyes. The moment I was about to raise my body to fight back, I heard a deep sigh in my ear. I felt a heavy weight on my body. He covered himself completely with me, but that was all. When he lowered his head, his weak hair tickled the back of my neck. I could feel the hot man’s body between my hollow chest. Pervin whispered lightly into my ear.
“Suddenly I remember what you told me on our first night.”
Per Vin raised his head and faced me. I didn’t spray perfume or wear a musk bag, but it had a strong scent. It was the smell of his flesh. Such an enthralling scent that tickles his nose and somehow makes his body tickle. He unwrapped the pod. With his free finger, he ran his finger up from my chin to my cheek. I couldn’t move, as if I was under hypnosis.
“You said you would get revenge on me, you. But I think you succeeded.”
“What do you mean?”
He blocked my glaring gaze with his wild eyes.
“I will cling to you, it will be mine that yearns, it will be mine that is thirsty, that is the greatest revenge. How do you feel about getting revenge?”
Nonsense. So he’s clinging to me? He never really expressed his affection, and above all, there was no reason for him to cling to me. His eyes flashed as if he was demanding an answer from me. In the midst of confusion, I first thought about what was important. What’s important to me is getting out of this situation. I lowered my voice as calmly as possible and encouraged him to find reason.
“I just want to live in peace.”
“…Who believes that?”
“You.”
At that moment there was silence. A spark like lightning flew between the two of us. Neither I nor he showed any sign of backing down. He never blinked his dark green eyes. I stared at him without blinking, trying not to be pushed away by him. My eyes grew colder and colder, but I did not give in. Pervin’s eyes wavered slightly. at that time. Shoot… A strong sound of rain was heard. Only then did I come to my senses. If it rains that much, I can’t go to the mansion? Am I stuck here without a move? As I looked out the window in confusion, Pervin seemed to understand my thoughts and said,
“I can’t go out anyway. It’s raining like that.”
Just as I was about to respond, my stomach moved faster than my mouth. “…Growl.” My face turned as red as a tomato, and Pervin hurriedly looked at my face. He, who had been frozen like a statue, unexpectedly stood up when he heard this sound. After reluctantly putting his shirt on, he called me to the table.
“You must be hungry. Come here and sit down.”
Pervin took his handkerchief out of his pocket and spread it on the table like a tablecloth. Then he took out some food from the small bag he had brought and placed it there. Before coming to the mansion earlier, I had just brought the bread given by the emperor.
“Let’s eat first and then talk.”
“…”
Because of my pride, I was not willing to accept it. Especially since I was under that man just a moment ago, am I really going to eat the food he gives me? “Gurrr…” Now the sound of a gurgling sound could be heard through the thunder outside. Okay, let’s eat some and talk. It’s purely because I’m hungry. I sat across from him and looked at the food. When I was about to choose a delicious baguette, he came over to me. He brought wine he found somewhere in the cabin. Every time he moved his body, the shirt on his bare skin fluttered. Every time I saw the white flesh inside, every time I saw the muscles protruding from the wide chest, I felt a surge of heat. I decided to focus only on the baguettes. As I mumbled with the baguette in my mouth, Pervin laughed as if he was dumbfounded.
“I brought it just in case, but I’m glad I did.”
“Yes.”
“Try this too. It’s a wine made with raspberries.”
Pervin filled his only glass with wine. I was thirsty but had no water, so I had no choice but to drink wine. It was much sweeter than expected and very fragrant. We ate and drank for a while. No, mostly I ate and he just watched me. He didn’t look at him at all, but he could feel it. I saw him sipping wine and draping his arm on the chair near me. At this time, we are enduring silence without saying anything. I looked at Pervin. He rested his chin on one hand and looked at me. He must have been deep in thought, playing with his thin lips with his little finger. He bit his lip as if hesitating about something. As I looked at him, he suddenly reached out his hand towards me. He skimmed the corner of my mouth with his elegant fingers.
“You drop the breadcrumbs and eat it, you’re not a kid.”
I quickly wiped my mouth.
“Baguettes are usually eaten by dropping them, so what?”
“Yes, that’s right.”
I could see Pervin’s eyes curling up nicely as if he was having fun. However, when he made eye contact with me, he returned to his stern expression as if he had never done that before. I put the little baguette left in my mouth. It was so frustrating that I couldn’t bear it.
“It’s about the annexation issue.”
Pervin’s dark eyebrows rose closely.
“Do it like this. Since it is my duty as a duchess, I will observe the annexation date set by the elders. Instead, I will sleep in a different bed, not in the same bed.”
Pervin’s eyebrows rose sharply.
“Let’s sleep in the same bed. No couple sleeps in different beds. Besides, a servant will come and wake you up in the morning, so what if they see you sleeping in the other bed and report it to the adults?”
“But…”
Pervin met my anxious gaze with arrogant eyes.
“Don’t worry. Because there is no hobby that is forced upon you.”
I added, encouraged by his arrogant gaze.
“Okay then. You and I agree not to do anything we don’t like.”
“…Let’s respect it.”
“The problem with the child…”
Pervin’s face hardened in an instant. I thought I was touching on an issue he didn’t like. So he hurriedly finished his sentence.
“Let’s discuss this with another woman you really care about.”
“Please! Let’s do that.”
I don’t know why they put emphasis on the word. I bowed my head with difficulty under Pervin’s intense gaze. Anyway, whenever the issue of children comes up, I get on my nerves like that. But I didn’t know. What he was angry about was not the child, but the ‘other woman.’
* * *
After a reasonable argument, it was already late at night. I was killing time by reading a storybook I found in the cabin. The rain still showed no signs of weakening. Pervin gathered the wood inside, mixed it with flint, and lit it. The fire in the cold cabin made it a little warmer, but the air was still cool. But drowsiness won over the cold. My eyelids kept falling, and my body suddenly bent forward. I wanted to close my eyes, but Pervin was already in bed. Fortunately, he had a thin shirt on top. It took me a while to leave two of his buttons undone so that I could barely see his chest.
“Excuse me… Are you going to sleep in the bed?”
I asked Pervin at the bedside. Pervin pursed his lips when he saw me like that.
“Sleep next to me.”
“But…”
“If you sleep in a cold place, your mouth will turn. Sleep in bed.”
He lingered next to the bed and grabbed my arm. With no way for me to do anything, I was trapped in his arms. I tried to struggle in his arms with all my might.
“Is there really a need to do this? It’s uncomfortable for both of us.”
“It was cold in the room, so I just wanted to raise the temperature.”
Per Vin whispered, gently wrapping his hand around my waist. Per Vin’s voice lowered, as if he was hiding something. He won the award. But I had no choice but to fall into Pervin’s arms. It was raining and the gloomy air covered my entire body with a cold chill, and I even started to tremble slightly. When Per Vin stretched out his arms and hugged me, he felt so comfortable as if he were buried in a warm blanket. He tried to relax, but he kept losing his tension. I started falling asleep more and more.
* * *
As Irwen nodded her head, Pervin took her into his own arms. She had a lot of things she wanted to say, but when she was awake, she was the one who couldn’t muster up the courage. She placed her head in her hands and whispered, patting her body filled in her arms.
“Whenever I see you, I keep spitting harsh words. I want to be gentle with you, but I end up coming out harshly to catch you, who is just trying to run away from me.”
Pervin buried her own face in her Irwen’s hair. He could feel her crawling into his arms, nodding in her sleep. Per Vin’s face became even redder at her dizzy feeling. Still, she had no intention of letting her go.
“I know you’re trying, so I guess that makes you hesitate even more. I’m worried about whether I can love you as much as I used to, and whether my heart might be rejected by you.”
She ran a hand through Irwen’s hair. Her soft touch passed over her fingers again and again. Eventually, the hand left her hair and settled on her cheek. In a quiet room. The sound of rustling and Pervin’s breathing filled the air. The moment when her face was filled with complex emotions, as if he had lingering regrets, and as if she didn’t know what to do. Hmm, his body shook with the sound of a deep breath. Just as Irwen turned her head and buried her face in his chest. Soft lips were pressing firmly on the thin shirt he was wearing.
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