How to Fix a Psychopath
Chapter 5
On the other hand, the eyes of the other children were so persistent that it was painful. Their gazes were so blatant that it was better to ignore them the day before, pretending not to see them. It was an atmosphere where it wouldn’t be strange if they rushed at me and committed violence at me any moment.
Crazy bastard… … . I clenched my fists and muttered curses under my breath. I thought I knew what he was thinking.
This is bullying. Yesterday they behaved like herbivores avoiding a carnivores.
It wasn’t because of me, but because of Lee Eun-woo. That’s why I thought it was so uncomfortable. But on the contrary, today, I was the only amd weak herbivore here.
I felt like a rabbit alone in a lion’s cage where the king clearly existed.
The enemy is clearly felt. The arrow is aimed at me.
It was scary. But they were kids. They were impulsive and
dangerous because they had lower judgment and reasoning than adults, but I thought it was just a small thing if immature kids were scary. It was really just a thought.
Mob psychology. It caused psychological fear in both adults and children.
I had guessed that there was no one on my side, but without Lee Eun-woo, I was truly alone. In reality, the weight of ignorance and hostility was different.
Without realizing it, sweat started to form on the inside of my fist. I was very embarrassed because it was something I had never experienced before, even though I was a Myeongji Seon who had a good relationship with my friends.
Just then the classroom door opened.
“Okay, sit down.”
It was a teacher who came in before the first period even started.
Only then did the children in my class who had been staring at me all time stopped it. Only then did I let out the breath I had stopped, as if they had grabbed my windpipe. Then I took a deep breath and glared at the back of Lee Eunwoo’s head.
No matter what you do, I won’t give in. I gathered my resolve once more and took out my first period textbook and workbook from my bag.
“Eunwoo, what page is it today?”
The teacher asked Eunwoo Lee at the podium. Eunwoo Lee said the progress page that needed to be marked as if he had already checked it off.
Lee Eun-woo is the class president. As a class president, he is also a person of power. He was offered to run for the student council president in his third year of middle school, but he declined. I heard that he declined because he would be too busy to monitor Kim So-young if he became the student council president. Nevertheless, Lee Eun-woo was more famous than the student council president.
“Okay, everyone, turn to page 57.”
I also found the page that Lee Eun-woo mentioned and opened it.
It was not pleasant to go through the process that had already been learned. However, in the story, Kim So-young was not good at studying despite her diligence. That was why she studied with Lee Eun-woo, who had never missed first place in the entire
school, and maintained a middle-class position.
Eunwoo Lee wants her to be completely dependent on him.
Because there is no part of her that Lee Eun-woo’s breath has not touched. He wants her to hang on him.
I took out a drafting pencil from my pencil case. If you are like that, I need a plan too. I opened up my notebook next to my textbook and started writing.
‘Hang on as Eunwoo Lee wants.’
I put a period on the end and looked straight ahead as if I was listening to the class.
[Result: As in the original.]
I frowned and neatly underlined another example.
‘I’m going to try to hold out until summer vacation without clinging to Lee Eun-woo.’
Now that I think about it, it’s early July, and there’s about a month and a little more left until summer vacation. I put down my mechanical pencil again and started writing.
[Result: The original is wrong, but we don’t know what Eunwoo Lee will do.]
I bit the tip of the pencil, not knowing what to do. I had to avoid things going the way they did in the original.
You want me to live a life worse than a dog’s? I quickly drew an X over my first plan to see my death.
Lee Eun-woo, who gave up the normal way of love, was a crazy man. Just like the title of the novel, even though he couldn’t get out of the swamp alone, Lee Eun-woo was so anxious that he went crazy and set up a trap in the swamp. That swamp and trap are not just for Kim So-young. They are for both Kim So-young and Lee Eun-woo.
I cannot face such a tragic death, such a dog’s death.
Besides that, what would Lee Eun-woo do with the woman he kidnapped and imprisoned? It would be fortunate if he could just lock her up like a greenhouse flower, but that wasn’t the case.
As in usually the case with the flow of a 19+ novel would be, the male protagonist only cares for the female protagonist endlessly, and then the female protagonist takes advantage of the opportunity to escape. At that moment, the male protagonist loses his senses and rapes the female protagonist. Lee Eun-woo
and Kim So-young follow this same flow exactly.
It was horrible to even think about it. Of course, it was not that I had never had sex. The body I had experienced was that of the original Myungjiseon’s, and even when I was Myungjiseon, my first experience was painful and I had no good memories.
But Kim So-young’s first experience was a rape with brutal violence. It was painful enough, but to be raped just because she had barely attempted to escape…
I closed my eyes tightly and stopped thinking.
When I read the novel, why on earth did I think it was fortunate that Kim So-young failed to escape? When Lee Eun-woo tried to rape Kim So-young, why did I think it was good that the scene had to come out? Thinking about it now, I get goosebumps myself.
“Phew… … .”
I sighed and lifted my closed eyes.
And then Eunwoo Lee’s eyes met mine. Eunwoo Lee’s eyes, which were stealing glances at me over his shoulder, were sharp enough to be murderous.
How long has he been staring at me? I slowly covered the notice I had been jotting down about Lee Eun-woo with my hand without realizing it. Even though I knew that Lee Eun-woo couldn’t see it from that distance anyway, I thought that it would be possible if it was Lee Eun-woo.
But Eunwoo Lee seemed to have no interest in the notice in the first place, so he persistently looked into my eyes and then looked forward again.
How should I react in such a situation? As soon as I saw the back of Lee Eun-woo’s head looking forward again, I picked up the eraser and erased all the words I had written.
Don’t get caught. Plan 2. Wait until summer vacation. You just have to grit your teeth and hold on. This is a do-or-die situation.
The first period ended in a flash. Fortunately, the teacher was famous enough to teach until recess, so there were only 5 minutes left. During this gap, the kids in my class couldn’t do anything to me, and since the second period wasn’t a moving class, I could relax.
Another fortunate thing was that the usual childish and vicious methods could not be used on Kim So-young.
Things like tearing the gym uniform or secretly throwing away
textbooks could have been avoided to some extent. Kim So-young didn’t use her textbooks by keeping them in her locker like other kids, and the same goes for her gym uniform.
But, um… … . I might have to worry a little about losing my belongings. I could put valuables in my uniform skirt, but other than that, it was difficult. Even the kids in my class could steal the textbooks in my bag. After all, since Lee Eun-woo has such a strong backing, there are things that I don’t think are possible.
I guess I’ll have to hold it in when I go to the bathroom.
By the way… … . I rested my chin on the desk and looked outside the window. Lunchtime was also a problem. I always had lunch with Eunwoo Lee. I’ve never eaten lunch alone.
Well, once I got to college, I started eating alone more often, so eating alone wasn’t a problem. The problem was the assumption that something might happen when eating alone.
Should I skip school lunch today and bring my own lunch from tomorrow? I could buy lunch, but if I do that, my living expenses will be tight. I’ve already paid for the school lunches.
It’s driving me crazy.
Of course, there are no children who would intentionally hate me
and do bad things. Even if I was hated by those children, I would be the one who would get hurt. If I told the school teacher about this, the children who did what Eunwoo Lee told them to, would be punished. That would not be good for the children’s emotions either.
But if they were to receive such punishment, wouldn’t they realize that they were wrong and try to escape from Lee Eun-woo’s power?
Actually, I don’t know. I really don’t know. I don’t have the power, money, or persuasiveness like Lee Eun-woo.
“Ah…….”
My stomach hurt.
I lowered both my hands and wrapped them around my lower abdomen, feeling the unfamiliar yet all too familiar pain. I was flustered. Wait, wait, wait, no way… … .
I rummaged through my bag in a hurry. There were too many pockets to search while it was hanging on the desk, so I placed it on my lap and quickly searched through it.
No. No. No. No. No. Why on earth is it not there? Even though she is a bit clumsy, Kim So-young is meticulous, so there is no way
she didn’t prepare for her period. But even after searching through all her pockets, it wasn’t there.
The classroom took on a strange atmosphere again because of me suddenly searching through my bag like a crazy person.
Should I go to the infirmary right now and borrow a sanitary pad? Why does it have to be now? I desperately tried to stay calm and hung my bag back on the desk. Right now, it should be okay since it’s probably just a little bit on my underwear.
As soon as the judgment was over, I got up from my seat. The kids in the class, except for Lee Eun-woo, were paying attention to me. The moment I left my seat, my desk might have been a mess, and something in my bag might have disappeared, but it didn’t matter.
It was much better than the kids in this class finding out that I was on my period. It was better than having to end up with Eunwoo Lee, feeling helpless with the menstrual blood that wouldn’t be washed off my skirt.
I glanced at the chair I was sitting in and left the classroom right away. As soon as the classroom door creaked shut in the hallway, the classroom quickly became noisy.
It seemed like they were reporting to Eunwoo Lee that I had run
away from class when there wasn’t much break time left.
“……Crazy.”
I ran down the hallway to the distant infirmary. The only sound was the clinking of my white slippers against the expensive marble hallway.
* * *
Kim So-young was dull and shared everything with Lee Eun-woo, but it seemed like she didn’t share things like menstruation. No matter how dull she was, she seemed to think that wasn’t something to share. Fortunately or not.
Still, it was a little strange. Kim So-young was originally skinny and had her period late because she grew until high school.
In general, students in the 1990s started having their periods later, but Kim So-young was even more so. So she said she had her first period when she was in high school… … .
Nothing really happened after the original was changed.
I knocked on the infirmary door and went inside.
“Excuse me…….”
But there was no one inside.
“teacher? Is there no one here?”
I opened the curtains to see if there was anyone on the bed with the curtains drawn, but there was no one inside. Damn it! I bit my lip in frustration. The medicine table in the infirmary was locked so that no one could take it without permission.
There was nothing I could do. I had to just go to the bathroom and hold out with toilet paper.
It was miserable. No one was on my side, and those around me were even less supportive.
I thought I could do well, but Kim So-young’s life in the novel was more intense than I thought. It was even worse because the original was distorted. Even luck was not on my side. I held back tears and opened the infirmary door again.
“Ugh,” my breath stopped.
poor Soyoung 🥲