Chapter 48 (R18)
How to Fix a Psychopath Episode 48
“Why are you doing that?”
Then I said annoyedly.
“Eunwoo Lee is coming. We have to create a world where no one is there.”
but…….
I looked at the people leaving my world in vain. Lee Jeong-yeon quickly passed by me.
“He’s the last one. He’s the one who’s left in this world and then he leaves.”
“I know.”
I spoke firmly and resolutely.
“If it becomes a ruin, won’t Lee Eun-woo come?”
I asked myself.
“If no one else is coming, Eunwoo Lee won’t come either.”
I, who looked young, answered calmly. I cried. It was my world that was broken in that dream all along. The world where Lee Eun-woo was sad and shivering was my world. So as not to break it any further.
“He’ll come.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Eunwoo Lee said he’ll come.”
I said so.
* * *
I opened my eyes again. I was in a hospital. It seemed like I was being rushed to the emergency room. Eunwoo Lee opened his eyes for a moment while crying and made eye contact with me. I think I told him to put some clothes on since his upper body was still naked.
And then I lost consciousness as if I had an oxygen mask stuffed into my mouth.
I opened my eyes again for the third time. I was in a hospital room.
Lee Eun-woo was standing there with his lips buried in my hand. When I told him to put on some clothes, he was still wearing the clothes he had used to stop my bleeding. His eyes were swollen from crying so much, but he didn’t look like Lee Eun-woo. He looked like he would cry again if I touched him even once.
I just sat there, staring at the ceiling.
Dark dawn. In the quiet single room, all I could hear was my own breathing, as if it would stop at any moment. The surgery seemed to have gone well. I couldn’t believe it, so I just rolled my eyes and looked around.
The constant mechanical noise and expensive hospital interior were the hospital I knew. The inpatient room was located on a fairly high floor. Outside, headlights were still running on the road, and streetlights were visible. The small dots of light were both welcome and unfamiliar.
It really came out.
“……Woke up?”
Eunwoo Lee asked, his mouth quivering against the back of my hand. His voice was very hoarse.
“huh.”
“It’s nothing serious. It’s just a split in the flesh, not even a major vein… … They said you’ll just have to be hospitalized for a few days.”
I guess he really thought I was going to die and cut my throat.
Eunwoo Lee burst into tears again. Big teardrops fell, making a dripping sound, soaking the sheets. I quietly raised my upper body. Eunwoo Lee got up from his seat, his teardrops still hanging.
“Why are you crying?”
In a completely dark hospital room, it would be normal to barely be able to see a silhouette, but strangely, in that shadowy mass, I could see what kind of expression Lee Eun-woo was making and what kind of face he was making.
I saw Lee Eun-woo wiping away his tears at my words.
“Have you reflected on your actions? Have you thought that you shouldn’t kill people? Have you given up on the idea of locking me up?”
Eunwoo Lee shivered.
“Ah- or… … . Are there any other thoughts?”
“Are you thinking of pulling out all my teeth so I can’t bite my own tongue? Amputating my legs so as to not throw myself out of this hospital? Or cutting off my wrists so I can’t slit my throat with a knife like today?”
Eunwoo Lee bit his lip at my softly whispered words. I took off the tape that held the ringer in place. Eunwoo Lee stopped me from doing this when I heard a squeak in the silence.
Eunwoo Lee’s breathing sounded so weak and fragile that it sounded faint. Hearing his frightened breathing, I folded my hands and slowly patted the back of Eunwoo Lee’s hand.
“Eunwoo. I can die at any time. I can escape from you at any time, and I can scare you at any time.”
I felt the back of my hand trembling and shaking beneath my palm.
“Do you want to live with regrets like your father? Or… … do you want to listen to me and live happily together?”
Eunwoo Lee shed tears again.
“If other kids see you, they want to take you away from me.”
“Nobody will care about us.”
My world is broken, and you’re the only one who comes to find it.
It wasn’t a dramatic survival. I didn’t touch any major blood vessels. It was intentional. I didn’t want to die. I drew a diagonal line across my neck. That’s why the bleeding stopped right away. My torn palm also healed right away.
Contrary to the doctor’s words that I would be discharged soon, my hospital stay was quite long.
Today, I pulled out the ringer line and had a fight because the hunting dog was sensitive to anything except its owner. This happened often since I was hospitalized. Whenever the doctor was there, there was a fuss, so it was relatively easy to clean up. I stole the fountain pen the doctor was carrying and threatened my life to appease the monster.
“Good job.”
When things went well in the quiet single room, Eunwoo Lee would bury his face in my lap. Even though I tried to be patient and moderate every time, he seemed to be dazzled by the friendly nurses and doctors.
Anyone can see that they are just being kind because I’m a patient.
I stroked Eunwoo Lee’s hair and whispered quietly. He has been suffering since I deliberately changed my attending physician to a man.
Praise makes even whales dance.
“You can do it. Right?”
As I kissed Eunwoo Lee’s lips while praising him, Eunwoo Lee’s eyelashes between his red and swollen eyes fluttered. He quickly gasped for breath, opened his mouth, and waited, just like a well-trained hunting dog.
As I slowly lowered my head again and opened my mouth, Eunwoo Lee stuck his tongue out and stuck to me.
“Soyoung… … .”
Eunwoo Lee groaned and hugged her waist. He held her waist tightly and stuck his tongue out a little more. There was a sticky sound of saliva mixing in, and Eunwoo Lee squirmed.
If you endure it well, you will be rewarded. However, if you cannot endure it and do as Eunwoo Lee wants, you will be punished. I increased the ugly scars on my body. I planted a sense of guilt in Eunwoo Lee so that it would become a deep scar that would never be erased.
That was the punishment.
“ha…….”
I looked up at Eunwoo Lee as he opened his mouth. His eyes were swollen and red. I quietly rubbed Eunwoo Lee’s eyelids with my thumb. They were so swollen that it looked like water would come out if I squeezed them.
Eunwoo Lee buried his face in my palm and closed his eyes. Eunwoo Lee, who was sitting on his knees under the bed, had his pants sticking out as if they would pop out at any moment.
“Come here.”
At my words, Eunwoo Lee stood up, breathing heavily enough to make his chest swell. He quickly took off his upper body cloth and threw it away, then stood close to the bed. Eunwoo Lee quietly bit his lips. I saw him clench his fist as he looked at my face as I brought my lips to his stomach.
Thick veins bulged out on the back of his hand, and I tilted my head to kiss Eunwoo Lee’s navel. Every time my lips touched his stomach, he flinched and trembled. Knock, knock, Eunwoo Lee tilted his head up diagonally at the sound that was particularly loud in the quiet and still hospital room. Eunwoo Lee’s throat, where the veins bulged out, throbbed loudly.
I just raised my hand and grabbed Eunwoo Lee’s shoulder and squeezed it.
Slowly, as if performing a sublime ritual, Lee Eun-woo followed my hand and sat down on the bed with his buttocks pressed against mine. My lips, which had been touching Lee Eun-woo’s upper body that was naturally descending, moved up from his stomach to his ribs, from his ribs to his chest, and from his chest to his collarbone, while kissing him.
“… … Ugh, Soyoung… … .”
Every time the firm and soft flesh touched her lips, Eunwoo Lee groaned.
The flesh was red and melted. As I licked my tongue over the deep burn scar, Eunwoo Lee shivered and panted hotly.
“Does it hurt?”
Eunwoo Lee shook his head.
“That… … Ah… … .”
Eunwoo Lee couldn’t finish speaking and grabbed my hand and interlocked our fingers. Eunwoo Lee’s palm was wet and hot.
“Good…….”
Eunwoo Lee answered with his face flushed. He licked his tongue again as his face got closer. All I could hear was his panting like an animal. I felt his face keep getting redder in the hot air.
“Ha, Soyoung.”
Eunwoo Lee pulled me close and looked down at me as if he was trapping me between his legs. His face looked as if he was about to cry, but also as if he was feeling good. I was reflected in his distended black pupils, and I quietly lowered my head and bit Eunwoo Lee’s collarbone with my teeth.
“Ah……!”
At the sound of it not being painful, I stuck out my tongue and swiped over the bite mark. It felt like a human skin covering marble. She pulled her lips away and licked the spot below his collarbone with her tongue. The small, hard flesh that was sticking out was crushed by her tongue and then bounced back up. Eunwoo Lee twisted his body again as if in pain.
“Haa… … There… … Ah, Soyoung… … .”
Eunwoo Lee couldn’t hold it in any longer and hugged my nape and the back of my head tightly. As Eunwoo Lee breathed hotly over my head, I put his small nipple in my mouth, and Eunwoo Lee swallowed and tensed up his body.
“Ugh… … hot… … Whew, huh… … . Ah! If you bite it… … no, it feels good. Ugh, ah!”
The sound of deep sucking and Lee Eun-woo’s moans made my nerves sensitive. Even without doing anything, my body felt hot. Lee Eun-woo’s moans that he let out without thinking made me dizzy, as if I was screaming. Was the heat being transferred?
The small piece of flesh that had been tormented to the point of redness and swelling was soaked with saliva. I put my hand on his chest that was rising and falling greatly over the small piece of flesh and pulled down his pants.
Eunwoo Lee’s eyes were fixed on his pants and underwear, which were going down as if they had stopped. Then he stuck out his tongue and scratched my lips.
“Hip.”
Eunwoo Lee placed his hands on the bed and slowly lifted his buttocks at my words. When I took off Eunwoo Lee’s pants and underwear, who was wearing comfortable tracksuits, Eunwoo Lee’s large thing was once brushed against the clothes and fell down, then bounced up loudly.
Eunwoo Lee looked up at me as I climbed onto his lap, panting so hard that I could barely breathe.
“Soyoung… … You have to get wet.”
Eunwoo Lee asked with a hazy face as if he was about to cry. The hand that was touching my waist slowly came down and felt my lower body. Eunwoo Lee, with a slightly surprised expression, buried his face in my chest and hugged me tightly.
“Come down slowly, slowly, okay? It might tear.”
The pressure he used to hold my waist was slow and gentle, as if he couldn’t hold back his gasping breath.
“Ha…….”
My mouth opened on its own. Eunwoo Lee gently patted my buttocks and lowered his head to bite my chest. Oh, my strength went down, and Eunwoo Lee also took a deep breath and tensed his body.
“Ugh, … … gasp, Soyoung. It’s too narrow… … .”
A languid, hot breath burst out. I continued to lower my hips while placing my hands on Eunwoo Lee’s shoulders. There was a squeaking sound as my lower body opened to the size of Eunwoo Lee, and the inside of my thighs trembled.
