How to Fix a Psychopath

Chapter 45

My eyes opened.

I felt like my eyelids were swollen to the point where I couldn’t open my eyes properly.

“Soyoung, are you awake?”

As soon as I woke up, Lee Eun-woo came over to me, wiping his wet hands on his apron as if he had been waiting for me. The hallway I could see through my blurry eyes was open again. I ignored Lee Eun-woo and glanced at the clock on the wall, and it was alive again.

Oh, a ridiculous laugh escaped my mouth. Then, I saw Eunwoo Lee’s fingers, gathered in front of his apron, wriggling around in disarray.

What is he doing? I was on edge again because of Eunwoo, who was watching me without answering.

“Do you want to eat?”

Eunwoo Lee hesitated and then asked.

I didn’t think. I kicked off the blanket without saying anything. I didn’t know… … . Now that I look at it, my legs look so skinny.

They looked so weak that if someone were to forcefully break them, they would break.

“You’re not going to say anything?”

Eunwoo Lee’s voice lowered above my head. Only then did I raise my head. I thought he was somewhat angry, but Eunwoo Lee looked at me with a hurt expression and was biting his lips.

“if I am not doing it, then will you leave me?”

A voice without any highs or lows spat out to Lee Eun-woo. In an instant, Lee Eun-woo made a bewildered face.

“I don’t know what you mean.”

“why did you lock me up?”

“… … .”

“Where did you go?”

It’s so annoying. Our relationship wasn’t getting any better, to the point where my head hurts. What’s even more annoying is that while I completely understand Eunwoo’s feelings, I’m fighting against my desire to understand, and my emotions are becoming more violent.

Eunwoo Lee opened his mouth, debating whether or not to speak.

No, I didn’t want to hear excuses.

“……Stop it.”

I raised my hand. Following my words, Eunwoo quietly shut his mouth.

I didn’t want to waste my energy on an emotional battle that would never end. It would just keep repeating itself.

I got out of bed and passed Eunwoo Lee on my way out of the room.

“Soyoung… … .”

“I don’t want to eat.”

As soon as I got out of the room, I went up the stairs. I didn’t care about the second floor anymore. I thought I’d feel better if I could at least breathe some cool, clean air.

I climbed up the stairs and opened the rooftop door wide. I could smell the damp, humid smell of rain just before it started. I looked up at the sky and saw that there were dark clouds, so it seemed like rain was coming soon.

Fortunately, I don’t have to water the potted plants today.

I walked to the flower pot hanging on the rooftop railing without even putting on my slippers. The wet wind blew between my legs. The inside of my thighs still hurt. I should have taken a sitz bath yesterday… … .

I crouched down in front of the flower pot.

“When will the sprouts come out… … .”

Only bare soil still covered the surface of the pot. I stared at the pile of dirt for a moment, then reached out to the pot with my hand that was resting on my knee. My hand dug into the dirt that was sufficiently dry.

The creepy feeling of dirt digging between my manicured fingernails made me wonder why I was digging up the flower pot.

‘What the heck?’

‘sunflower.’

Why aren’t any of those big seeds sprouting?

The hand that had been digging the flower pot with both hands lifted the I-shaped flower pot container and turned it upside down. A pile of dirt poured down onto the floor and the instep, and I dug through it again.

None. None. None of the seeds that had been sown many times were visible.

I stopped frantically searching for seeds.

“Aaah!!”

I lifted another flower pot.

Crunch! The plastic flower pot shattered and fell to the floor, spewing dirt. I’m going crazy, I’m going crazy. I’m going crazy! This is clearly trying to make me crazy!

I heard Eunwoo Lee hurrying up the stairs.

“Soyoung!”

Eunwoo Lee, who had come up to the rooftop, looked at the scattered flower pots, then became lost in thought and ran towards me. Blood dripped from my hands.

“Where is it?”

“Soyoung, calm down. Okay? Calm down and give me your hand. You’re bleeding.”

“Where is it?”

She shouted while pushing Eunwoo Lee’s chest as he tried to approach her. Blood stains were clearly visible on her white clothes.

“… … I threw it away.”

“throwing away?”

“Yes.”

“why?”

“… … I think you’re obsessed with that.”

“So, you threw it away?”

Eunwoo Lee reluctantly nodded to my answer.

Ha! A huge, incredulous sigh escaped me. I shook my head. I couldn’t even imagine the joy I felt watching myself watering and fertilizing the bare ground. I was shocked to think that he would have thrown away the seeds, thinking that if they didn’t sprout, I would give up right away.

“Sorry…….”

That damn sorry.

Lee Eun-woo carefully approached me and grabbed my bleeding hand. I just let Lee Eun-woo do whatever he wanted. Lee Eun-woo quickly bit the wound stained with blood and dirt.

“Ugh… … .”

He sucked hard on the wound and spat out the foreign substance onto the floor. Then he bit the wound again, sucked it, and spat it out onto the floor. The thick blood and dirt mixed with saliva looked just like Lee Eun-woo.

“Does it hurt? Let’s quickly disinfect it and go to the hospital. It’s torn.”

hospital…….

“You mean the room with the operating table attached to my room?”

Eunwoo Lee focused on the wound and looked at it, then raised his eyes and looked at me. His swaying black eyes made me feel as if they were suffocating me.

“how did you know?”

“……ha.”

I waited in the closed operating room. The blood kept flowing without stopping. Every time that happened, Eunwoo Lee couldn’t stay still and brought a towel to stop the bleeding on my hand.

It seemed like he had called a doctor.

“Does it hurt a lot?”

My lips turned white, and I could see it through Eunwoo’s eyes. I wasn’t in pain or suffering, but judging from my complexion, my body seemed to be struggling. My mind was clear and sane.

“What should I do… … It keeps bleeding.”

Eunwoo Lee frowned as he licked the dried blood on the back of his hand, feeling sorry for the blood that was flowing endlessly. It seemed like he had forgotten to spray disinfectant.

I laughed out loud at the sight, and Eunwoo Lee looked up at me, blinking.

And then, when I looked at Eunwoo Lee with a dry and empty face again, Eunwoo Lee rolled his eyes.

“… …Shall we go out, Soyoung?”

What are you talking about?

There’s no way you’re going to take me out the normal way, right?

“That… I saw the movie that Soyoung saw.”

“So?”

So what?

Did you realise that I cried so hard, my nose turned red, while watching that movie? Did you realize that what you were doing to me was not love? No, it wasn’t.

I looked at Lee Eun-woo with resentful eyes.

This is just a bunch of your petty, selfish obsessions.

“I, I was short-sighted. I was supposed to take you out, eat something delicious, and do that. I keep forgetting. We should be traveling and stuff. I’m sorry for keeping you in a place like this. Let’s get this treatment done and then go outside quickly. Okay?”

Eunwoo Lee was talking nonsense. He seemed so urgent, like he really didn’t want me to die.

Oh, I see.

You’re afraid that I’ll die now, shedding this kind of blood. You didn’t care if I shed my blood.

I looked down at the red-stained towel. I don’t know how much it was torn, but it was bleeding so much. Would Eunwoo Lee be trembling?

I looked at Lee Eun-woo again.

“You realized it just now?”

“I’m sorry… … . I said I would make you happy… … . Please forgive me, Soyoung. Okay?”

I don’t know why you keep crying like a beggar.

“Yesterday…….”

“huh?”

“Even if you had said that yesterday, I would have did it the way you wanted.”

Eunwoo Lee’s eyes shook as if he was anxious.

“Ha. … … I don’t want to go out.”

I don’t want to see you kill anyone on the street.

Eunwoo Lee did not deny my firm words. At that moment, the bell rang. It seemed like the doctor had arrived. Eunwoo Lee tried to say something more, but stopped and hurriedly went outside.

“ha…….”

The bags under my eyes felt like they would melt away. I felt dizzy, as if someone was pressing down on my head.

I laid down on the operating table as if I was collapsing, my body completely relaxed. The large, unlit operating table light was dim.

“Soyoung!”

Eunwoo Lee came right away. Eunwoo Lee, who thought I had collapsed, came running and made a pained face as he watched me blink silently. Then he spoke to the doctor who came in late. The doctor was a woman. Young, slender, and pretty.

Sitting next to the handsome Lee Eun-woo, it seemed like a good match. Can’t you two date and leave me alone? Feeling my gaze quietly watching the two of them, Lee Eun-woo suddenly looked at me and slightly distanced himself from the doctor.

What are you doing?

Do you think I was jealous? I turned my head away as if I didn’t care. I counted the patterns on the dark-colored walls. It was meaningless, but it was better than seeing Lee Eun-woo, who did nothing wrong, acting like a bastard while watching me.

“Let me just look at the wound for a moment.”

A gentle and kind doctor came over to me and spoke to me kindly. The towel that had been covering my hand disappeared, and the doctor examined the torn wound with a sigh.

I was reminded of the fact that I had been tending and looking after a flower pot that had nothing in it. I was so angry that something indescribable poured out like vomiting. So I stirred and broke quite a few flower pots.

If you focus on that little thing, do you think something big will happen? If it disappears, do you think the attention will go to you?

“Oh my god… … It’s torn so badly I think you will need stitches.”

The doctor reported to Lee Eun-woo without telling me.

“I have the medical supplies for stitches. I think I’ll need some anesthesia.”

“Ah… … There is a sleeping pill mixed with anesthesia.”

I no longer cared what the two of them said.

“Oh, then could you bring it to me?”

Eunwoo Lee came to me after finishing his conversation with the doctor. Eunwoo Lee bent his knees to be at eye level with me and helped me remove my hair that was stuck to my sweat.

“you need to sleep for a little while because of the surgery.”

I know. You thought I couldn’t hear you after you said it so clearly? I just closed my eyes. I didn’t feel the need to respond.

“I’ll be back soon.”

Eunwoo Lee gave me a quick kiss on the face and went outside. Then I opened my eyes again. The doctor brought a large tray next to me and opened the bag she had brought.

“hey.”

“yes?”

The doctor stopped handling her bag and looked at me. Her kind face answered kindly.

“There are other places that hurt too.”

“Is that so? Where is it?”

“Down there… … .”