Critical Point (R19)

Prologue

“Whoa! Ah, now, ah!”

He glared at me with eyes that were so black that they were scary.

“Now, what next?”

“Ugh, ugh… … .”

“Is it because it’s been so long that you can’t even stand this much? That’s why we should have done it right from the beginning.”

“Ugh, please, take it out, if you put it in me like this, uh, ah… … .”

“If you can’t stand it anymore, then should we stop?”

The voice mixed with laughter was low and gentle, but his actions were not. He clenched his teeth and tensed his trembling body. A cold hand ran down from his spine to his buttocks, and then hit the top of his buttocks.

“Ahhh!”

Every time a large palm slapped my butt, the vibrations embedded in my body stirred and dug in sharply. As my trembling knees fell onto the bed, the man further beat me without mercy.

“Ah, it hurts… … .”

Every time the hand touched his paining area, the tip of the tied genitalia dripped.

Every time I was spanked, the soles of my feet curled up and the wrinkled sheets on my fingertips gathered. My buttocks felt hot as if they were on fire. I couldn’t help but regret that the hard object that dug into me every time the palm spanked me wasn’t a man’s.

“Mr. Cha Woo-kyung.”

He then carelessly touched and kneaded the spot where his cold palm had struck, making the skin burst.

“… … Ugh… … .”

“You know. If you can’t stand it anymore, you can tell me anytime.”

The low voice whispering in my ear was as affectionate as ever, but I wanted to refuse the order. I gritted my teeth and shook my head. Every time my face shook, something hot would splash out of my moist eyes.

Ending things is easy now. If I can’t stand it anymore, I have to just say it. However, the man didn’t always listen to me unless I said a safe word. Now, I wanted to tell him to stop teasing me and fuck me, but I felt like he would abandon me and go out of the door if I said that. I bit my lip and sobbed. The panting sound like an animal didn’t seem to be mine.

A large hand grabbed the back of my neck and pushed me onto the bed with force. My crumpled limbs were carelessly thrown onto the bed. The wet sheets clung to my bruised nose, suffocating me. Even the bloody smell tasted sweet.

“Ugh, I can’t, breathe… … .”

“Why are you panting so hard already? What did I do?”

“…….”

Every time the man tightened his grip and tightened his hold on my neck, my body’s muscles trembled as if they were tightening and releasing. What leaked out behind me was crushed by the man with his knee and buried inside me. A tingling sensation ran like a shiver all the way to the tip of my head.

I couldn’t see anything with my eyes that were closed because I couldn’t bear it, and my tied limbs were tingling because the blood flow was cut off. My eyes were burning red with the thought of wanting to ejaculate, and I felt like they were going to burst. I moaned, rubbing my forehead on the sheet, feeling the pain all over my body.

“Please, uh, forgive me, ah… … .”

“Then what should I do?”

At the harsh words, I forced myself to exert strength and lift my buttocks up. Crunch, crunch. The handcuffs flew out without fail. The man’s hand that hit my buttocks, shook it, and pushed the dildo back in as I was feeding numb, but I was happy.

It had been a long time since I had played without sex. I laughed and cried to the point where I almost lost my mind. Even my mouth, which would normally swear, was quiet today. The man in front of me was not someone I could treat carelessly until the play was over.

“Can you hold on a little longer?”

“Ugh, ugh, I’ll try to hold it in, ugh, I can’t stand it, ugh… … .”

“If you can endure it, then you have to endure it. Is there anything else you can do? There’s still time.”

The man seemed satisfied and lightly slapped my buttocks a few times before returning to his seat. Clearly, we were in the same room, but the man sitting in a dark corner of the room with the lamp on and reading a book looked very neat, unlike my lecherous self.

Even though the man’s fingertips absentmindedly turned the pages of the book, and the monstrous dildo buried behind me continued to thrust at me without looking, and even though I was curled up on the bed, tied up and panting without being able to do anything, he didn’t look at me. The belt lying at the man’s feet felt like I was being ignored, and I felt the sorrow surge through me like a tidal wave.

I wanted to rub my hand over the spot where I was hit and beg him to hit me more, but I held it in. I knew that if I didn’t say what I wanted, the bad guy would harass me. Throwing a tantrum about not wanting to do something that I could bear was just childishness in the end. Only when I couldn’t bear it did the pain become meaningful.

My lips moved as if they were quivering. The pain that the man gave me was always something I enjoyed, so I didn’t want it to end like this. It wasn’t because I wanted to be liked by that man, or because I wanted that man so badly that I thought I would die.

“Teacher, sir, please, huh… … .”

I had to be miserable until the man wanted me to. It was no use begging or desperately clinging. It was my job to truly gasp and beg until the man was satisfied. Then he would destroy me like crazy just as I wanted.

But even in moments like this, our set safe word comes to my mind. It’s something I would never say on my own, and both he and I know that. So it would have been much better if I didn’t remember it. It would have felt more real.

“Put it in, huh, put it in, please… … .”

I kept getting out of breath and it was hard to even continue talking properly. Today, the man was even more fierce and ruthless than usual. He had beaten me so many times that the skin all over my body seemed to have burst, and my backside seemed to have been torn apart from being tortured all the time with my genitals tied up for ejaculating first without permission.

“Please… … Ugh, hurry… … .”

“Anyway, patience is important. You should be thankful that the time has come. Got it?”

“Okay, I was wrong, huh, yes… … . I know, I… … .”

The man who clicked his tongue came up behind me. The man who played with me didn’t take off his clothes or touch me affectionately. At the sound of the zipper opening, my throat convulsed and saliva gathered under my tongue. My eyes were already red and I couldn’t see anything.

“Uh, ah, ah!”

The thing that had been tightly packed behind me, interlocked with my inner wall, slipped out in an instant. What filled the empty space was something much hotter and heavier than that. I was impatient with his gesture of thrusting the penis inside me and shaking it slowly and playfully.

“Ah, dah, hurry, huh, ah, that, not that, huh!”

I bit my tongue and begged because my eyes were about to roll back. Every time I put strength into my back, I bit down on his penis, squeezing it. Because I was guilty of wetting the sheets, if the man didn’t ejaculate, I wouldn’t be allowed to finish as well.

“Why are you in such a hurry, huh?”

“Please, ugh, ah, please… … .”

The moment the thick glans pressed hard against my sensitive spot, my knees gave out. The man who was holding my spread legs spread them apart to their limits and thrust his waist in again forcefully. I blinked until my mind went black and then white.

A scream or a groan, I couldn’t tell, disturbed the small room. The play taking place in an unfamiliar place, unlike usual, made me out of breath. The man’s leisurely pace, moving quickly and then slowly, was difficult for me to keep up with. I held onto his twitching limbs and moaned in a daze every time the man moved.

“Ugh, uh, ba, quick, uh, good… … .”

He laughed, his long fingers firmly grabbing my side.

“This is why I feel uneasy. Do you know that?”

“……Ah!”

“If you just poke it a little, it opens up and comes loose here and there. It’s the same here.”

His fingers traced over the tightly closed wrinkles.

“No, no, I was wrong, I did, ah!”

I spread my back wide and held my breath as his penis penetrated. There was nothing I could do but endure the rush of pleasure. The penis, which was poking and digging inside, arbitrarily opened and dug into my closed intestines, and it persistently thrust only at the places where it felt.

I couldn’t remember how much I cried and how much I screamed. The man’s ejaculation seemed unusually late today. I tried to scratch the sheets with my nails as if I was going to tear them, but it was of no use. Every time the man moved, the red flesh was pulled out as if it was going to be torn off, and then thrust back in. The vicious penis with bulging veins moved freely in and out of my stomach, playing with it as it pleased. I couldn’t tell if the sharp sensation was pleasure or pain. It was probably pleasure.

The man grabbed my face, which was sobbing incessantly with my mouth open, and forcibly turned it around. As I resisted the feeling of my bones being misaligned, my bound limbs were completely twisted while containing my genitals.

“Ouch! You crazy bastard, yikes!”

The man’s body temperature seemed to cool down at the words that came out accidentally.

“What?”

“No, uh, ah, if you turn it like that, uh… … .”

The evil force easily turned me over. My tied arms were pressed behind my waist, and the back of my head was placed on the pillow. My internal organs, which had been bitten and returned to my genitals, seemed to be in complete disarray. The man looked satisfied as he watched me, who was barely breathing with my mouth open.

“I have to see it.”

A warm, salty drop of sweat fell on his bare skin and rolled into his mouth. The man with disheveled hair twisted one side of his mouth slanted and his handsome face was completely scowled. I felt relieved at that face. It was really over now.

“I’ll just do it inside then.”

“Ah, no! Ugh, no, no, ugh!”

“No? If you don’t like it, then there’s nothing I can do.”

“Please!”

My eyes widened as I saw the penis piercing into my deepest part. I felt something lukewarm flowing over the sharp pain that felt like being stabbed with an awl. My body trembled and curled up at the sensation of something slippery being sprayed on the hot spot. The hand that approached my penis twisted the knot violently.

“Ah, ah, ah!”

A thin liquid splashed onto his stomach. The long-awaited ejaculation was not easy. Every time his big hand grabbed my penis and squeezed it, a white liquid gushed out. He laughed as he moved it as if he was smearing semen on my inner walls.

“I like it the best when Cha Woo-kyung says he doesn’t like me.”

The moment the man’s speech changed from formal to blatantly informal, I came to my senses. With the lukewarm feeling flowing behind me, I poured out the words I had been holding back, as if resenting him.

“F***, you son of a b***! I told you to stop doing that!”

“Why, what.”

“Fuck, if I tell you not to do it, don’t do it!”

“I’m going to scratch it all anyway. And it’s not just once or twice… If I want to do it then I will do it.”

The man who had been rubbing his genitals softly moved his stomach as if he was crushing my genitals. As soon as he finished ejaculating, I threw my neck back and groaned at the pain of being roughly rubbed. The man’s genitals, which had begun to shrink in size, poked inside me again at will and rubbed me here and there.

“Ugh, ah… … .”

“Look at this. You are going crazy over it.”

The man’s words were always right. I trembled, letting the sounds flow out of my mouth. When the man pulled back, I saw his wet, white penis. The man, who had come up on his knees, grabbed his cock and rubbed it against my lips. I sucked the fishy-tasting penis with my tongue. As I sucked it like candy, a low voice covered my ears. Even though the volume had decreased, the man’s penis was still huge. It seemed like it would fill my mouth or even burst through it.

“Fuck… … .”

Anyway, I am a really easy person when it comes to painful sex or hot play. I know that I am easy, and this guy knows that too. I was the idiot who let it slide even though I knew that, and that guy was the one who knew that and manipulated it as he pleased.

“Anyway, if you don’t swear even for a day, then you’re not Cha Woo-kyung.”

“What, so why? You don’t like it?”

“No. Who said that?”

The man who had been busy with complicated work lately must have been under a lot of stress because he never let me sleep comfortably at night. It was the same yesterday and the day before. Today, he even dragged me to a place other than home and made a fuss. Suddenly, I felt tired and blinked, and the man pressed his lips to my forehead. He rubbed it on my cool forehead. I placed my hand on it as a response and scolded him.

“Why are you acting so romantic when you don’t like it? Why don’t you get out of here?”

“Well, I feel like this much is okay today.”

“Get out of here, it’s weird. It’s sticky.”

“Anyway, Cha Woo-kyung. Don’t you know how to lose even once? Is it true that giving in is completely bullshit for you?”

“Oh, that was just a rumor. Didn’t you know?”

The man kissed my ankle which he was holding tightly and caressed the reddened mark for a long time, then bent his knees and rubbed his groin on it. The sensation of his damp lower body being rubbed stickily made me grit my teeth and I let out a squeaking sound.

“Ah, just take it easy… … As I said earlier it’s really hard for me too… … .”

His playful eyes looked at me and he laughed as if he found it ridiculous.

“As we live together, there are times when Cha Woo-kyung refuses to have sex. Is that really a big deal?”

“Just think about how much you’ve messed with me so far with that smart head of yours. I didn’t sleep last night either… … .”

I pulled my foot out from under his wrist and swept it across the man’s neck. The man grabbed my ankle as if twisting it and ground his teeth against the round bone.

“When will you hang on to me for weeks and ask me to do it?”

“Let me out of this bondage quickly. I want to smoke a cigarette.”

“Cha Woo-kyung, you’re good at solving these things. Try to do it yourself.”

“Hey! You fucking punk, aren’t you going to let me go?”

I was getting a little excited for no reason, so I tangled his tie that had tied my hands. It wasn’t mine, so whether it got torn or not was none of my business. The tie’s knot was just like him, even after intense sex. He smiled faintly as he watched me twist my wrists here and there, trying to tear it instead of untie it, and I easily untied the tie by tearing it. He clicked his tongue as he looked at the silk tie that had become unusable after just one play.

“You tore my tie again, Woo-kyung.”

“Then why don’t you bring me something proper instead of a tie? Okay? Should I buy you some then? Yeah, I saw a pair of handcuffs a few days ago, but they’re covered in fur so they won’t hurt at all… .”

There are more tools available than you can imagine, such as rough ropes made of hemp or leather handcuffs, but the man’s taste is surprisingly classic. Strangely, when he tied me up, it wasn’t a real tool, but something he always had. Like a tie or a belt.

“I told you to keep your mouth shut. If you buy anything weird again, I’ll make it so you can’t even squeak, so go ahead and do it.”

“Fuck you… … .”

I knew from my personal experience that he was a man who could fully carry out his words. I kept my mouth shut as I remembered the incident that I had done as a joke a while ago and had to pay back several times over. I just saw the Aneros and was curious, so I bought it, but when this man found out that I had brought it he suggested using it. Just thinking that the man might use it on me as an experiment in the next room made me shudder.

I thought it was really great because everyone liked it, but it was really great in a different way. I still vividly remember the horrible experience of crying and begging all night on that toy. Sex that only gives pleasure without pain was the hardest thing for me to endure, and the man knew that better than I did. The problem was that this man had a rather twisted personality. He liked taking care of me after making me cry for a long time because I hated it. So he often ruined me in the way he wanted.

I sat on the bed and snuggled up to the man who was smoking a cigarette like an animal. I wrapped my legs around his stomach and rubbed my forehead against his neck, so the cigarette between his long fingers fell on me. I took the lit cigarette with my mouth. The cigarette he smoked first had a slightly damp filter, but I didn’t care. This was like a habit we had after sex.

“Good…….”

I could feel the man’s smile on my skin. Now that I don’t wear glasses, this is nice. I can put my face directly on his bare skin.

He didn’t scold me when he saw me smoking a cigarette with my cheek resting on his broad back, but left me alone. We didn’t have to do that anymore. We have regular sex at home, and sometimes we go to unfamiliar places to play for a change of pace.

“Umm… You know…?”

“Say it.”

“Why didn’t you take your clothes off today?”

He is the very first man that I have know who is very secretive. He used polite language whenever we played and didn’t take his clothes off. The moment he turned into a violent tyrant and a thug was our reality, but these days, things often get mixed up and tangled. Just like now. That’s why I sometimes get confused about whether I’m playing with him or having sex.

Today, this man looked just like how he was in the past. That is, my teacher when I first met him. He was an arrogant and violent tyrant who would only use polite language to hurt others when he opened his mouth, and who would not take off his clothes when we had sex. Of course, I also really liked this side of him. It was even more so because I thought of the old days.

“Cha Woo-kyung is changing, so I need to change too. I want to do something nice for Cha Woo-kyung after a long time.”

I don’t know why he struck like a chord with me, even though it was nothing special. Every time I saw his principles crumble, I felt an inexplicable sense of superiority. I reached out and stubbed out my cigarette in the ashtray, and snuggled close to his back. It was strange in many ways that I felt a tingling sensation every time I saw him.

When I first met him, I was really curious about him.

There is something similar between intense sex and fiery emotions. For people like me and that man, there could be no emotion that was sexually emasculated. Whenever we fought, we fought like crazy people, but when we made up, instead of sweet words, we had a messy sex. Because our emotions were different from others. We were running together, fighting, unable to stop on that vague line at the edge of its limit. It was hard to say that but it was good, I couldn’t say no even if my mouth was torn.

“Didn’t I say you don’t have to go to work tomorrow?”

“Why are you suddenly talking about that?”

I rubbed his penis precariously with the sole of my foot that was stretched forward. Even after ejaculation, the man’s penis was still sluggish. I kissed the man’s shoulder, feeling that hard sensation. As expected, one time was not enough for me or for him.

“Come to think of it, it’s kind of like that. It’s been a long time since I came all the way here, so it’s a shame to end it after doing it one time, isn’t it?”

“I thought that you preferred it to be quiet today.”

“If I’m quiet, is it better for you or me?”

As soon as I finished speaking, the man smiled and our tongues tangled. The menthol scent and bitter taste I felt from him were not that bad. The man’s fingertips traced over my hole, then poked inside me and spread it wide open on both sides. I happily accepted the sensation that this man gave me while opening my legs wide enough to make my thighs twitch.

I have been away for too long before I met this man. There are countless words that can define him and me, but I think that the sweeter and softer words would be more appropriate to convince him. But this man would never say such things even if I died. As proof, he would sometimes get angry at me. In fact, the reason I am a little bit calm today is because we had a big fight a few days ago.

My first man was a fairly famous judo player. Unfortunately, it was just after the international sports competition, so no matter what channel I turned on, I saw his face, as he was the gold medalist. It was no use protesting that it was absolutely not my intention. I thought that if his patience ran out, the TV would be destroyed along with it, so I unplugged it. However, I couldn’t stop myself from watching the Internet or the news.

Now I can say it like a joke, but last year was a really big deal for me. To explain what happened to him, how this fight broke out and how we met, it would be best to start with when I met my first man, Baek Seung-min.