Crack
…is it an illusion?
Bian Shengjian’s breathing became rapid in an instant, and he didn’t dare to go forward for a while.
“I’m fine……” Lu Shen barely supported himself with his hands and sat up, leaning against the wall and gasping for breath, “Has he disappeared?”
“Who?” Bian Shengjian was stunned for a few seconds before realizing that he was probably referring to the cloud of black mist, and then turned his head to look before silently nodding.
“Yeah.”
“I’m really fine.” Lu Shen seemed to have finally breathed a sigh of relief, and then waved to Bian Shengjian with a pale face, “Young Bian, come here. “
Bian Shengjian walked over without saying a word. First, he tentatively touched Lu Shen’s body. When he found that the touch was still warm, he finally breathed a sigh of relief, and eventually sat down by the wall as soon as his legs softened, stretched out his hand and hugged him fiercely. “…You fucker.”
Lu Shen patted him on the back silently. He also understood how much this incident tonight would have an impact on Bian Shengjian, but besides being able to hug him tightly at this moment, he really had no other way.
“……Is he dead?” Bian Shengjian asked.
“Mn.”
After a while, he said, “This can be said to be a real death, because his soul has been swallowed up.”
“Oh.” Bian Shengjian was also silent for a while, “He deserves it.”
Lu Shen didn’t speak, because he could clearly feel that Bian Shengjian was trembling unconsciously at the moment, and that his fingertips were also cold.
“Lu Shen.”
“What’s wrong?” he asked softly.
“I just saw your body become transparent.” Bian Shengjian said, “Will you disappear?”
Lu Shen was taken aback, and subconsciously lowered his head to look at the longevity lock hanging on his chest.
Sure enough, another crack appeared.
“…Didn’t you say it before,” Bian Shengjian followed his gaze, and suddenly stretched out his hand and grabbed the chain of the Longevity Lock, “that you rely on this to maintain your entity, right?”
“Yes.” Lu Shen said it with some difficulty, as if he had realized something, his already pale face seemed to be covered with a layer of glaze, “Third Brother, listen to me first…”
“I won’t listen.” Bian Shengjian interrupted him, his eyes fixed on the crack on the lock, “What’s the matter with the marks on the surface?”
Seeing that he could not hide it from him, Lu Shen could only speak vaguely, “Each spirit envoy is responsible for a different area… If you forcibly enter or exit a certain period of resentment, cracks will appear in the spirit instrument. If there are too many times……”
“The lock will crack and then you’ll disappear?” Bian Shengjian said.
Lu Shen went silent for a while before struggling to open his mouth, “It can’t be said that I’ll disappear….look, didn’t you also see me the first time you met me?”
“That’s different.” Bian Shengjian took a deep breath and stood up, “Get up, I’ll take you back first.”
“What’s the matter?” Lu Shen was keenly aware of the change in Bian Shengjian’s mood, but Bian Shengjian never spoke again after that sentence, until the two of them went downstairs and took a taxi to a nearby hotel. They were silent all the time, no matter how Lu Shen raised the topic, he would not say a word, which made Lu Shen feel very wronged, until the two of them swiped their cards to enter the room, he couldn’t help but asked again, “Third brother, what’s the matter?”
“What’s the matter?” Bian Shengjian threw his coat on the bed, and said in a calm tone, “I saw a person die in front of my eyes today, what do you think is the matter with me?”
Lu Shen opened his mouth but remained silent for a while.
“But that’s not the point.” Bian Shengjian took another deep breath, as if trying to suppress his emotions. “Lu Shen, how many things have you kept from me?”
Lu Shen stared at him in a daze, “What?”
“I originally planned to ask Wu Lan about many things, but now he is dead.” Bian Shengjian said, “But judging by your current attitude, do you plan to keep it a secret for the rest of your life?”
Lu Shen looked at him silently.
“Why didn’t you tell me anything?” Bian Shengjian stared at him and asked.
“I’m sorry.” Lu Shen lowered his head.
“I don’t want your apology!” Bian Shengjian raised his voice, “I just want you to tell me why!”
Lu Shen didn’t speak.
“Do you think it’s okay to just keep it from me?” Bian Shengjian reached out and grabbed his collar and pulled the distance between the two of them closer, almost yelling against the tip of his nose, “Do you think that as long as one person can carry everything down, it will be fine? Lu Shen, what the hell do you really think of me?”
Lu Shen’s lips trembled violently, his voice was a little hoarse, “…I’m sorry.”
“I fucking said you don’t need to apologize!” Bian Shengjian yelled so loudly that he pushed Lu Shen back hard against the wall, “I ask you, if your lock was broken today, what if you disappear!”
“……I won’t.” Lu Shen said with some difficulty.
“Bulls**t!” Bian Shengjian felt as if the blood in his body was burning, and even the breath he exhaled was hot, “Why don’t you tell me anything! Who do you think you are! Can one person save the world?”
Seeing that Bian Shengjian’s topic had gradually deviated from the right track, Lu Shen still maintained a bitter smile on the corner of his mouth, “I……”
“……Do you think we shouldn’t be together at all?” Bian Shengjian took a deep breath and looked at him almost with indifferent eyes.
Lu Shen froze suddenly.
“From the time we first met, you just wanted to use me, and then all those messy things happened.” Bian Shengjian looked at him coldly, “The fact that we were together is in itself beyond your expectations, right? You also know that you will leave one day, then why did you choose to approach me in the first place? To only just throw me away like trash after using me?”
“……That’s not the case.” Lu Shen couldn’t help coughing, feeling pained in the upper part of his chest.
“What’s that like?” Bian Shengjian laughed, and even the smile didn’t have any warmth, “Do you think it’s interesting for us to go on like this?”
“It’s not that I didn’t want to tell you,” Lu Shen spoke slowly, with a trace of sadness in his eyes, “I just thought that…..even if I tell you, you can’t change anything.”
“So you never believed me.” Bian Shengjian’s tone was very light, the huge disappointment made his whole body cold, and even his jaw almost started to tremble, “Is that right?”
Lu Shen closed his eyes in pain and did not speak.
The problems that were avoided, neglected, should only be in the past and not in the future, because of the influence of Bian Shengjian, he also learned to look at them optimistically and enjoy the time spent with him now.
But he forgot that even if he was optimistic and pretended not to see it, the problem was still there and would never be eliminated alone.
However, Wu Lan’s sudden appearance and subsequent series of developments were like a sharp knife mercilessly cutting through the almost transparent paper, bringing those seemingly distant problems to them in an instant, as if forcing them to make a choice.
If in the beginning………………….
Lu Shen pursed his lips tightly, and opened his mouth as if he had made up his mind, “Yes.”
Bian Shengjian’s hands loosened subconsciously.
“But it’s not that I don’t believe in you, it’s that I don’t believe that you can change everything.” Lu Shen said softly, “Whether it’s my past or the future…..I will disappear one day, Third brother.”
“Besides, I was careless about the previous incident. It was an accident that 91 found you this time. I can’t predict what will happen next. You…it’s really dangerous if you continue to stay by my side..” Lu Shen’s tone was very light, but his words hit Bian Shengjian’s heart like a heavy hammer, leaving a bloody mess, “I’m sorry.”
“…..What exactly do you mean?” Bian Shengjian could hardly hear his own voice.
“I like you, and I want to protect you…but nothing is more important than you being able to live a good life.” Lu Shen said, “All of this is my problem, I’m really really sorry.”
“So, let’s break up, Third brother.” Lu Shen finally said this in a calm tone.
“…What did you say?” Bian Shengjian thought for a moment that there was something wrong with his ears.
“I said, let’s break…” Before Lu Shen could finished speaking, he was punched hard on the face, directly blocking the rest of his words–
“What the hell are you talking about!” Bian Shengjian punched him again in the stomach, with a completely appropriate force that made Lu Shen feel like vomiting, and his face turned pale again, but he still struggled to get the rest of his words out, “Bian Shengjian, let’s break up.”
“Lu Shen!” Bian Shengjian grabbed him by the root of his hair with his hands, and he could almost see the burning anger in his eyes, “Is this your final solution? What on earth do you think I am?!”
“This is the only thing I can think of.” Lu Shen said with a light breath.
“Okay.” Bian Shengjian smiled angrily, “You want to break up, right?”
Lu Shen nodded with difficulty, feeling that the area on his face that Bian Shengjian had hit had swollen rapidly.
“Get over here.” Bian Shengjian pulled his hair with one hand, dragged him abruptly and slammed him onto the hotel bed. Before the springs of the mattress stabilized, he took off his shoes and pressed him down. His cold fingertips slowly stroked the wound on Lu Shen’s face, and then grabbed his chin forcefully.
Lu Shen shivered from the cold of his fingertips, but he still didn’t say a word.
“If you really wanted to break up, why didn’t you fight back just now?” Bian Shengjian said with an uncontrollable irritability, “Speak!”
Lu Shen didn’t look at him, and turned his head straight to one side.
“Look at me!” Bian Shengjian pinched his chin hard and turned his head back, then suddenly lowered his head and kissed him hard on the lips, and growled almost as if venting, “Good, let’s see if I can pry open your damned mouth today!”
It was unknown whose teeth hit whose lips, however Lu Shen let out a low groan, gasped and whispered in the almost biting kiss, “…Don’t do this.”
Bian Shengjian pressed down on him, almost without any method to pry open his teeth and hook his tongue, and kissed him fiercely in a way that blocked all his breathing. In addition, the other two free hands were not idle. One hand was clutching his hair root and the other hand was vigorously pulling off his pants and kicking them on the ground, causing several unpleasant creaks on the mattress.
Then, a few unpleasant creaking noises followed.
Bian Shengjian reached out and gently brushed his sweaty forehead hair aside, not letting Lu Shen see the heartbroken expression flashing across his face. “Let me ask you one last time, what exactly happened to that car accident?”
“I said,” Lu Shen closed his eyes, with tear marks remaining at the corner of his eyes, “I said..”
“Don’t lie to me,” Bian Shengjian kissed his neck all the way from his collarbone until he stopped at the most dangerous position of his Adam’s apple, “Hmm?”
Lu Shen subconsciously wanted to avoid his kiss, but he was firmly held down, he licked and bit his Adam’s apple, and finally let go after a long time, but Bian Shengjian still looked at him with that frosty expression, “Speak.”
“Thirteen years ago…” Lu Shen pondered for a long time before opening his mouth slowly, as if he had finally torn open a small corner of a long-sealed secret, “I was the one who killed them all.”
Bian Shengjian was taken aback.
