Copy of Resentment

No return (part 2)

　　”Bullsh*t!” Bian Jianhua couldn’t help but slam the objects within his grasp. He looked like he wanted to rip his son’s skull apart and discover what ecstasy was inside. “Why are you so reckless with your life? Did your mother give birth to you just to scuffle with others..?”

Bian Jianhua became silent before completing his sentence. As soon as his hands were loosened, he met Bian Shengjian’s dark eyes with a hint of rage.

　　”Bian Jianhua.” Bian Shengjian’s tone was very light. “I wanted to ask you why you have such confidence talking to me like this all this time.”

　”Because I’m your father,” Bian Jianhua said sternly, but his voice was lowered, and he didn’t dare to glance up at Sheng Jian’s eyes, where intense emotions were about to erupt.

　”Really?” Bian Shengjian chuckled twice before abruptly raising his voice: “You are my father? I never fucking accepted that you are my father! My father died with my mother when I was ten!”

“Son…” Bian Jianhua shivered all over and his lips became pale in an instant.

　”Yes, I like to fight, and I like to play music and write bad songs, but what does this have to do with you?” Bian Shengjian looked at him, his fingernails digging crescent shaped indents in the palm of his hand: “You know, I always can’t wait for you to die quickly.”

　　”No…” Bian Jianhua gasped, his hands subconsciously groping for the medicine in his pocket: “Son, listen to me…”

　　”Why can’t I beat that waste into being hospitalized?” Bian Shengjian said, his tone plainly furious, but there was a slight smile on his lips, cruel like a fiend savoring blood at the knife’s edge, “Because I fight fiercely by nature. Yes, it’s genetic, inherited from my own father.”

　”Don’t you think so? Murderer.” Bian Shengjian said, hooking the corners of his mouth.

　For a few seconds, the air stilled, then Bian Jianhua immediately raised his head and, without allowing his brain a time to buffer, slapped Bian Shengjian hard. “Shut up! It’s not like that at all!”

　　Bian Shengjian remained silent. The slap had broken the corner of his lips and forced his head to the side. His field of vision was blurred, and he noticed blood dropping on the ground out of the corner of his eye. Under his feet, a scarlet stain had appeared on the white cashmere carpet.

“Heh,” Bian Shengjian said, wiping the corners of his mouth, but all he could hear was his own pounding heart. Thanks to his old man, the surrounding voices, especially Bian Jianhua, had to wait at least five minutes before flowing back into his ears. He couldn’t slap him deaf because if he could, then he’d drag two people to hell with a knife today.

“Sheng Jian…Are you okay? I’m sorry, Dad really struck you hard,” Bian Jianhua said, frightened as he noticed the frightening slap marks and wounds on his face.

　　”Go away.” Bian Shengjian took a piece of paper (tissue paper) from the table and pressed the corner of his mouth with it. “Don’t touch me. “His voice a little hoarse.

　　Bian Jianhua stood in place silently, watching his son go into the toilet, washed the blood on his face, and dripped water coming out. His eyes have returned to the previous alienation and Indifference: “You know, we can only be at odds and torment each other in life”

　　”I’ll move to a school farther away. I don’t want to see you.” Bian Shengjian’s tone was calm then he closed the door and walked out.

　Bian Jianhua didn’t speak. He sat down on the sofa and slowly covered his face with his hands.

“Old three, are you really leaving?”

Sheng Jian was seated at the bar, his legs sprawled out in a stupor, when the phone rang. He had no idea who had given him a glass of alcohol. Anyway, he wasn’t interested in chatting up with those heavy-make up goblins, instead, he looked blankly at the glass of red wine, enthralled by the blood-like fluid.

  “Well, what?” 

　”Damn…” Li Fei scolded, “He was let off? I think that person who was beaten by you was treating it as nothing.”

　　”It’s best to gather first and then have a clean dispersion.” Bian Shengjian held the wine glass and watched for a while. Took a sip and almost coughed out: “…Fuck.”

　　”I’ll call A-ming and Ping Ping, let’s go out to have dinner tonight. Afterwards, I’ll see you off..” Li Fei gritted his teeth and was silent for a while, but he was still angry: “Or I’ll just call some brothers… . . . ..”

　　”Da Fei.” Bian Shengjian put down his wine glass and sighed, “I had beaten him, I know. Enough.”

　　”Isn’t your father very capable? Why don’t you persuade him to get rid of that garbage? It’s fucking unfair!” Li Fei clenched his teeth and said.

　　”Forget it.” Bian Shengjian said.

“Forget it!” Li Fei was a little unhappy, “You should have called me when the two of you were fighting, and I could have beaten him for another three months!”

　　”How can I know something ahead of time?” Bian Shengjian’s tone was a little absent-minded.

　　”Hey!” Li Fei , in all respects, got choked, but it was impossible to have a seizure while on the phone. “Forget it, I know you’re in a bad mood, so I’ll book a private room first.”

　”Don’t worry, just wait for tomorrow night. I am not planning on leaving tonight.” Bian Shengjian rested his chin in one hand, “Call the ones you know before, and tell them it’s my treat.”

“Okay.” Li Fei hesitated, “Where are you now? Do you want me to accompany you?”

　　”No, food can only accompany me.” Bian Shengjian took a sip of the wine he ordered, half closed his eyes and said, “that’s it, I’ll hang up.”

　　”Old three, I can,” Li Fei tutted on the other end of the phone. “I’ve mention how could you fight with others for being gay…I almost forgot that you are….”

　　”Li Fei.” Bian Shengjian’s tone instantly cooled down, “I want to die.”

“Fuck, I was wrong.” Li Fei realized that he had slipped his tongue, and hurriedly hung up the phone. “See you tomorrow night.”

“Go away.” Bian Shengjian rubbed his temples. People who are usually not affected by white wine are actually a little dizzy with only a single glass of whiskey. It seems that tonight’s mood is really bad. 

　　People who are in a bad mood get drunk easily. Thinking of this sentence, he couldn’t help but twitch the corners of his mouth. He pushed away a goblin who wanted to get close to him and walked out, trying to make himself sober for a while by the oncoming night wind.

　　”It’s good to get together, appropriate for a good disbandment!” Tan Ming roared and raised his glass.

“I wish Old three for a brighter future!” Li Fei also stood up, and almost threw the wine on Bian Shengjian’s head. “Isn’t it, Old three!”

　　”Yes, no matter where I go, I’ll still be thinking of you even when I die.” Bian Shengjian kicked him and touched each other’s cups: “Cheers.”

　　” Why are you sitting there quietly? Your third brother will leave in a few days!” Tan Ming angrily patted Xiao Liping on the shoulder. “Hurry up, it won’t be easy for the brothers to have a meal in the future!”

　　”Third brother…” Xiao Liping stood up and poured a full glass of wine, but he went down without even touching Bian Shengjian’s cup. “I’m sorry! I’m very sorry for you!”

“Fuck, why are you crying?” Li Fei was taken aback by him, so he hurriedly covered his mouth: “Don’t mention it after I’ve said it, you fucking…”

“Stop crying,” Bian Shengjian took a few pieces of paper (tissue paper) from the table and pressed it on his face. “It’s not a big deal. It’s just to make a comeback after disbandment.”

“But…” Xiao Liping wiped his tears hard, clenched his teeth, red eyes and picked up the wine glass, “third brother, I will remember you all my life!”

“Thank you.” Bian Shengjian patted him.

　　”That’s right! What big deal? After all, we are brothers who have been through tough times together!” Tan Ming smiled and clinked his glasses, but his eyes were a little red.

“You guys…” Bian Shengjian looked at the solemn and stirring look on their faces, and finally couldn’t help sighing, “well, you guys slowly hug your heads and cry bitterly. I won’t pay this bill.”

　　”Don’t,” Li Fei hurriedly took the lead to warm up the atmosphere. “Hey, hey, what are our slogans? Have you forgotten!”

“Hot wind, warm as the wind! Love forever, Go crazy forever!”

“Psychos.” Bian Shengjian smiled and took another sip of wine. He looked up at the group of people who were so excited that they blushed and had bulging necks. At last, he relaxed and leaned back on the chair for a moment.

“Good luck.” He said faintly.

The author has something to say:

Happy National Day, long time no see! Let me see which babies jump as soon as they open the pit. Kiss them one by one = 3=

PS: don’t drink the wine given by strangers

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