“Episode 40”
How would a mouse feel when caught stealing food in front of a cat? Ray, forced to walk up to Clodan, only fidgeted nervously with the hem of her skirt. Clodan was in the midst of pulling the chains to release his right hand, and his freed left hand moved up Ray’s calf.
“Did you do it on purpose? Testing me? Pretending to be tied up even though you could have freed yourself.”
Ray defended herself against the accusation, knowing resistance was futile. “Are you afraid I’ll find out?”
“No, it’s not because I’m excited.”
“I’m constantly getting aroused and masturbating in front of you. Why?”
Clodan’s hand reached up to her thigh. The warm hand that had comforted her now naturally moved to the area concealed by her underwear. Even before it touched, the moisture was transmitted through the fingertips, making Clodan smile.
“Aren’t you wet?”
“Well, you see…”
“You’re not someone who gets excited by this kind of thing?”
There was dampness on the fingertip, teasingly prodding. His right hand pulling the chain exerted even more pressure.
“Ray.”
With a tomato-red face, Ray was crying. Tears flowed silently, sorrowfully, not even making a sound. Clodan moved his hand to pull Ray closer by her waist.
“Why are you crying?”
Not even startled by the erect penis beneath her, she turned her head away, refusing his lips. Yet Clodan persisted, pressing his lips against her cheek even as she turned away. Despite her resistance, he kissed her cheek.
“Embarrassed?”
“…”
“Do you hate me?”
“…”
“Do you love me?”
Finally, with tear-filled eyes, Ray looked at Clodan. She mumbled a few words, but then stopped speaking again, her voice barely audible due to her choked-up throat.
“Ah!”
But soon the voice escaped. Clodan’s hand moving downward had soaked Ray’s underwear thoroughly. As the moist genitals came out into the cool air, the presence of the flesh that was immediately adjacent to it was felt.
“Why won’t you answer?”
“What… Wait, just a moment.”
“I’m asking if you love me.”
With a sudden sensation of Clodan’s penis entering below, Ray’s voice was stifled. The hardness of Clodan’s arms embracing her waist made her unable to shiver even as the sensation of being filled overwhelmed her.
Since last night, it had been burning but not yet fulfilled. Just the sensation of the penis entering made Ray feel dizzy.
“Ah, ah…”
“Do you love me?”
She couldn’t understand why he kept asking. It had been asked several times already, and it was a word he had asked her many times. And it was a word she had not said to him.
“I don’t know. I don’t know.”
It was Clodan’s fault that she said such a thing even though it wasn’t a time for mischief. “Don’t lie.”
“I don’t want to say anymore.”
“You don’t want to say?”
“It’s not even important to Clodan.”
Clodan lifted Ray’s waist with his hand. As the thick penis almost slipped out on its own, he lowered her waist again.
“Ugh! Ah…”
“I’ll ask again.”
Ray stubbornly turned her gaze away. Clodan held Ray’s face, which was struggling to escape, and kissed her tormented lips.
“Do you love me?”
The lips, tightly sealed like a clam, did not give an answer. That too was an answer. Clodan smiled with one corner of his mouth lifted, and he proceeded to cut the chain on the right side.
The noisy clinking of chains extended like a snake on the ground. Clodan didn’t even bother with the heavy chain hanging from his right hand as he laid Ray down on the floor with his penis inside her and proceeded to undress her.
“It would have been nice if you had answered.”
“Hmm…”
“I might have been a bit affectionate.”
With the chained right hand, he grabbed her breasts and brought them to his open mouth. He chewed and swallowed them like juicy fruits, lightly sucking on her tender nipples while not forgetting to savor the taste of the bed. Ray, not wanting to moan, bit her own wrist.
“Do you enjoy it when a man who doesn’t even love you sucks on you?”
“Ah, ah…”
Feeling unsatisfied, Clodan hastily withdrew his penis and rubbed it against the sensitive area that quivered upon contact. Each frictional movement sent waves of sensation through Ray’s body. After slowly filling her with pleasure, he leisurely teased her like a master of the domain. The wetness on the bed had long since soaked through. Marks of their encounter were visible on Clodan’s abdomen. Everything was so stimulating that Ray felt like crying out loud.
“Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah…”
It wasn’t enough. She needed more stimulation. Her body, carried away by the spreading pleasure, instinctively moved her hips, signaling to the man sharing her passion to go further. It was a signal indicating to take it to the next level, without hiding anything.
“Stop moving.”
“Hah… I, I…”
“Don’t resist.”
Slowly withdrawing his penis and precisely reinserting it where it had lingered before, Clodan took pleasure in the sensation. Ray unconsciously pulled on Clodan’s shoulders.
“I hate it.”
“Why?”
“Because I despise you.”
“Hate?”
It wasn’t that. That was the complete opposite of what she wanted to whisper to Clodan. After waiting so long to hear it, she wondered if this was the only answer she could give. Angry, Ray lowered her hand and pushed against the shoulders in front of her haphazardly.
“That’s, that’s the answer? If I… if I hate it, don’t do this! How much… how much more do I have to love alone? Why is it always… every time only me. There’s no one who loves me back? Why, why… Ugh!”
Despite turning her head away to avoid Clodan’s rough tongue that was delving into her mouth, he turned her face back and resumed the kiss.
“Uh, ah! No, s-stop, I… ah!”
As she tried to evade his lips, this time he thrust his penis upward from below. It was a gesture that brought more than the desired pleasure. He would withdraw without fully entering, smoothly slipping in and out, teasing different areas each time.
Ray squirmed with her legs spread wide until she finally placed them on Clodan’s firm thighs. That’s when Clodan personally wrapped her legs around his waist.
“It’s, it’s too deep, ah! Ahh, no! Uh, ah!”
As his penis penetrated deeper, pressing into parts she had never felt before, Ray struggled to avoid it. Yet, the wet and forceful intrusion was arrogant and rude. Like a familiar guest visiting a home, it didn’t hesitate to enter to the end.
“Ah, uh, aah!”
Her legs wrapped tightly around his waist. Ray, overwhelmed by the climax, had no strength to resist. She shook her hips while clinging to Clodan’s shoulders with her nails. Unable to pull away, Ray cried out as she reached her second climax.
“Uh, ah, please, h-haah, Clodan, Clodan!”
His fully thrust penis paused at the deepest point. Even though the ejaculate that pushed in and out was still ejaculate, for a moment, the enlarged penis filled her completely, still shooting ejaculate inside.
“I… I hate it, ah, uh, no, pull… pull out…”
After forcefully thrusting like someone who couldn’t speak, now he pretended to wipe away tears. His penis was still swollen. Ray, disgusted, wanted to push it away.
“I hate it, why do you keep coming in?”
“Because you’re moving.”
“He’s trying to pull out, he’s trying to pull out.”
Clodan held Ray tightly in his arms, pulling her head back with her wrapped around the back of her neck and holding her waist.
“Even like this, do you still love me?”
His expression couldn’t be seen, but his voice was more solemn than usual. Ray showed her full sincerity throughout.
“Yeah.”
“No matter what kind of person I am?”
“It doesn’t matter.”
Ray found solace in the gentle stroke of her own hair. Even in this moment of being penetrated, she found more comfort than in any other act.
“Clodan, you just brushed it off like it was nothing.”
“Just that.”
“It’s not just that.”
Clodan kissed Ray’s lips briefly, despite her protest. “Just that’s right.”
“No, it’s not.”
“Ever seen a guy who can’t even seduce a woman?”
“I guess Clodan’s done a lot. I wouldn’t know because I’ve never met a guy like that.”
“Ray.”
“So, have you seduced many other women besides me?”
“I love you.”
In the dark space where even faith couldn’t penetrate, in the moment when a bare-chested man and a naked woman were intertwined, Ray received the first answer about love in her life.
Memories of hatred and resentment melted away into the pond of affection. Ray couldn’t believe it and asked once more.
“I didn’t mishear, did I?”
“It seems like it.”
“I don’t want to. Stop it and tell me again.”
No matter how expensive those lips were, they wouldn’t open. As Ray kissed him, Clodan smiled and embraced her.
“Even if I killed someone?”
“What?”
“Would it still not matter?”
As if he wouldn’t let go no matter what answer came, the grip of his arms remained tight. “Anyone?”
“Anyone.”
“When on earth?”
“A long time ago.”
Clodan touched Ray’s surprised hair and spoke. But unlike his affectionate touch, his voice was dull and cloudy.
“Ray, if even so, you still love me.”
“If?”
“I’ll keep you locked in this mansion forever.”
It was a proposition as terrifying as a death sentence. It seemed like he would make her wander as a faint ghost, not just empty words. But Ray had one thing to ask.
“I’m asking you once out of pity. After that, even if I want to end it, I won’t be able to. Understand?”
“Clodan.”
“Yeah?”
“You could be arrested, right?”
“What?”
“For killing someone. Could you be arrested?”
Clodan chuckled ironically and thanked her parents for raising her to be so starved for affection, to the point where she fell into his hands. Clodan took her lips with pity for the pitiful love.
“It won’t happen.”
“Really? What if, later on, you leave me alone?”
“Ray.”
“Yeah?”
“I won’t tolerate it anymore. It’s not about compromise; I need to give myself fully to you. Anything less won’t satisfy me.”
“Fully?”
“Fully.”
Clodan whispered to Ray’s forehead, “Even if you break, I’m okay with it.”
Clodan understood himself. Rather than having her partially, he preferred not to touch her at all.
Despite feeling affection for Ray all this time, he hadn’t confessed his feelings for that very reason. If she were to run away or get tired, he knew what would come next. So he restrained himself. It was the first act of consideration he had ever shown in his life, giving Ray the opportunity to escape at any time. But foolish Ray, now greedy, couldn’t wait any longer.
“I love you.”
“Don’t change.”
With that, only one thing remained solely his.
