“Episode 36”
Ray had only once witnessed a scene where someone else kissed. It happened when his governess Millie, who had been meticulously braiding hair, suddenly started rushing through the lessons. Feeling a bit hurt, Ray followed her to see what was going on, only to find Haishe there. The two were glued together, sharing a kiss. Ray was only fourteen at the time.
Since then, Ray’s interest in romantic encounters between men and women had diminished by half. Unlike the lively chatter between maids, the stolen kiss scene had only brought discomfort. Perhaps it was because the anger of losing the admired older sister to Haishe was strong.
“Just stay a little longer. Hmm?”
But now he fully understood. Knowing the pain of yearning for someone while living, the importance of the other person’s feelings over one’s own reality. Through loving Claudan, Ray realized this, no longer dwelling on the past or on others. Whether Claudan felt the same, he didn’t know. What was certain was that letting go was difficult.
“Do you have a lot to do today?”
Claudan had been busy with unrelated matters, often taking away Claudan’s knowledge accumulated over his lifetime. Without explaining the details, the culprit who kept Claudan confined was understood. Just by occasionally visiting, one could tell from the ink-stained hands and piled-up books. Was it some kind of research? Roughly speaking, that was the case.
After a dramatic reconciliation, Claudan’s attitude towards Ray subtly changed. Despite Mrs. Mary’s shrug, Ray, the person involved, could feel it. Hesitation crept into the seductive attitude that Claudan used to attack whenever there was a chance. Claudan liked to sweep Ray’s waist whenever their lips collided. He was a man who attempted a kiss that should be saved for bedtime from morning.
“You go to bed first.”
After finally breaking the awkward silence, the reward in his hand was disappointingly bland.
Ray held onto Claudan’s waist, who seemed to want to leave, refusing to let go. “I’m not letting you go.”
As he spoke with a playful tone and added strength, Claudan chuckled softly. “Don’t tempt me.”
With a rebellious spirit, Ray brought his lips to Claudan’s cheek. Claudan, who had been rising, sat down as if he had been hit by a hammer. When Ray wrapped his legs around Claudan’s thighs to prevent him from standing up, hot breath flowed from Claudan’s lips.
“Stop.” “Why?”
Clodan turned his head as if caught in a thicket of thorns. Although Ray was puckering his lips, Clodan felt a bit surprised when he felt the presence of the man’s heel on his ankle.
“Clodan.”
Instantly, the atmosphere became awkward. As Ray began to slowly lower his pressed leg, it seemed to stimulate Clodan instead. Clodan’s breath became rougher as he fidgeted, and his impulsive nature became more evident. They were in a bedroom, and their relationship was more intimate than most lovers’.
But nothing happened. In the past, they would have already gone further and been done with it by now. This difference in behavior fueled Ray’s unease. The changed demeanor seemed to signify dwindling and fading affection. Retreating, Ray lifted his leg back onto Clodan’s thigh.
“Clodan, look at me.”
He didn’t respond, just parted his lips. It seemed like he was gathering patience. Ray couldn’t understand such Clodan at all, as there was no reason for it.
“Kiss me.”
He closed his eyes completely, trying to ignore her approach and block it. It seemed like he was intent on removing even the leg he had raised. Resentful defiance began to well up.
“Do you dislike this?”
“Ray.”
“Can’t you even kiss me? Are you too busy? Do you have to go?”
It seemed like it was too much. Clodan had always tossed her around and embraced her whenever he wanted. Even when she begged and resisted, he didn’t relent. But now, it was just a kiss. Even that being disliked was incredibly selfish. Ray, seething with anger, firmly grabbed his jaw.
“Stay still, just stay still.”
When it came to kissing, Ray still boasted of immature skills. He was only familiar with passive kisses that were received, not led. It was the first time Ray took the lead in a kiss. As he awkwardly inserted his tongue into the parted lips, all he could do was wander inside. His gaze couldn’t stay steady either, alternating between Clodan’s nose tip and eyes. Yet, his persistence showed a hint of determination.
Every action relied on memory. Where Clodan’s hands were when he kissed, how he should breathe properly. Where Clodan’s throat tickled as his tongue passed through. Ray made sure to remember everything.
“Ha.”
Was it intentional? Clodan’s previously cold breath gradually became heavier. With each moment Ray’s lips moved away, he let out occasional dissatisfied groans. Even his previously unmoving hand began to gently caress Ray’s wrist, and his receiving tongue began to slide back.
“Clodan…”
Clodan’s hand slipped inside Ray’s nightshirt. The large hand gently caressed the thigh, then suddenly delved into the undergarments and gripped onto the hidden parts. Ray’s lead in the kiss disappeared, and instead, he found himself invaded from the lips.
It was a sudden change. The man who had politely greeted earlier now seemed tipsy and turned away. In the midst of pushing lower, it was Ray who, ironically, lacked composure.
“Yeah, ugh…”
Even the reluctant moans were distorted as fingers entered between the underwear. Desperately searching for the target, they roamed stickily near the genitals. Silenced by the overwhelming kiss, Ray harshly tapped Clodan’s shoulder.
“Ah!”
As a brief moan escaped from the momentarily freed lips, the fidgeting fingers briefly penetrated the intimate area. The long-neglected area felt a slight pain but swallowed it down softly.
At first, the entering finger stayed quiet, but it gradually explored its way, wiggling and moving forward. Every touch was precise and delicate, teasing Ray to the point of exasperation.
“Ha, oh… huh.” “Ray, what should I do?” “Ah, ugh, yeah?”
Ray immediately understood as soon as he raised his head and saw Clodan. It was just like that day. Smiling, guarding the door. Just like the day he had pushed Ray out, and then won and lost again. The calm Clodan from a moment ago disappeared, replaced by a smiling beast.
“Ha…!”
Another finger added by Clodan deeply pierced the spot. It was always the place where Ray couldn’t resist feeling sore. The two fingers plunged deeply and withdrew. Even the previously passive area, now free from pain, began to send out signals of readiness.
The sound of squelching was intense. Clodan handled it without any trouble, pulling out the water accumulated on his fingers. It was a merciless treatment for Ray, who had never experienced such stimulation before.
“Huh, ah, Clodan! Sl-slow down, huh, ah, slow…!” “Give me something to bite on.”
“You’re too, too fast… Huh? Ah, huh… Ah!” “Whether it’s lips or milk, anything.”
Without expecting a response, Clodan soon bit into Ray’s neck. It was an innocent action, akin to a male teasing a female, rather than choking her. But his fingers, still ravishing Ray’s genitals, were relentless, fervently extracting the sticky fluid.
Ray, expecting gentle caresses, felt embarrassed by Clodan’s wet hands. The water pulled out by his fingers flowed without restraint. Sensing the dampness between his buttocks, Ray attempted to push Clodan away.
“Cl-Clodan, wait, wait a moment. Ahh, just a moment, huh! Cl… Ah!”
As Clodan continued to toy with his fingers, he extended his tongue. And with the tip of that tongue, he pretended to lick Ray’s chest. “Let me bite.”
Grabbing his own chest, Ray placed it into Clodan’s mouth. Despite the blatant request, Ray’s genitals, given only to two fingers, couldn’t stop releasing the fluid. Seeing the stream flowing like a strong current from Clodan’s wrist, Ray, now clouded in confusion, found it difficult to discern reality.
“Quickly. Let me in.”
“Ah, Clodan…! Ahh, huh, then, slowly, huh… Please, please?”
Instead of a reply, Clodan showed it through his actions. The teasing fingers embedded in the soft flesh stopped, blocking any further leakage, effectively sealing the entrance with his mouth. In fact, even this action could be considered a caress, but Ray, unable to judge, simply unbuttoned his nightshirt with trembling hands.
“Just a little more. Huh, ah, no, don’t… Huh, stop.”
The top button was particularly annoying. As Ray fumbled with it, the fingers that had been quiet in his genitals began to tickle the flesh. Because of this, Ray had no choice but to continue unbuttoning.
“It’s almost, almost done… Huh, Clodan!”
Gazing intently at the chest peeking through the gap in the nightshirt, Ray, embarrassed but determined, gently lifted the area below the chest, bringing it closer to Clodan’s lips. “Is… is this okay?”
“Huh, ah, Clodan! Slow, slowly, huh, ah, slowly…!” “Give me something to bite on.”
“You’re too, too fast… Huh? Ah, huh… Ah!” “Whether it’s lips or milk, anything.”
Clodan, not expecting a response, soon bit into Ray’s neck. It was an innocent action, akin to a male teasing a female, rather than choking her. But his fingers, still ravishing Ray’s genitals, were relentless, fervently extracting the sticky fluid.
Expecting gentle caresses, Ray felt embarrassed by Clodan’s wet hands. The water pulled out by his fingers flowed without restraint. Sensing the dampness between his buttocks, Ray attempted to push Clodan away.
“Cl-Clodan, wait, wait a moment. Ahh, just a moment, huh! Cl… Ah!”
As Clodan continued to toy with his fingers, he extended his tongue. And with the tip of that tongue, he pretended to lick Ray’s chest. “Let me bite.”
Grabbing his own chest, Ray placed it into Clodan’s mouth. Despite the blatant request, Ray’s genitals, given only to two fingers, couldn’t stop releasing the fluid.
Seeing the stream flowing like a strong current from Clodan’s wrist, Ray, now clouded in confusion, found it difficult to discern reality.
“Hurry. Let me in.”
“Ah, Clodan…! Ahh, huh, then, slowly, huh… Please, please?”
Instead of a reply, Clodan showed it through his actions. The teasing fingers embedded in the soft flesh stopped, blocking any further leakage, effectively sealing the entrance with his mouth. In fact, even this action could be considered a caress, but Ray, unable to judge, simply unbuttoned his nightshirt with trembling hands.
“Just a little more. Huh, ah, no, don’t… Huh, stop.”
The top button was particularly annoying. As Ray fumbled with it, the fingers that had been quiet in his genitals began to tickle the flesh. Because of this, Ray had no choice but to continue unbuttoning.
“It’s almost, almost done… Huh, Clodan!”
Gazing intently at the chest peeking through the gap in the nightshirt, Ray, embarrassed but determined, gently lifted the area below the chest, bringing it closer to Clodan’s lips. “Is… is this okay?”
“More.”
“What… what more do you want me to do…?”
Clodan simply opened his mouth slightly. With closed eyes, Ray carefully pushed his chest into his mouth, then reluctantly withdrew it. Clodan didn’t miss that moment. He quickly dove in, biting into the exposed chest while simultaneously pulling out his fingers from Ray’s genitals. As Ray felt the sensation of being pulled out, he lost his strength.
“Ah, ah! Don’t, don’t do this, huh, ah!”
Two fingers entered Ray’s genitals again. Despite being already drenched, they thrust in and out, repeating the motion of extracting the fluid. Clodan’s wrist, along with the bed, became soaked. As Ray struggled to escape from Clodan, who grabbed onto his chest, he writhed in agony.
“Please, no, no! Huh, ahh! No, Clodan! Please!”
It felt like all the moisture was draining away. Despite being part of his own body, the endless flow of liquid from his genitals felt alien. Lost in ecstasy, Ray clutched onto Clodan buried in his chest and writhed uncontrollably, crying out in agony before finally reaching climax.
“Ah, ahh, ah! Huh! Ahh!”
With fingers still embedded, he collapsed. It wasn’t even his genitals, just two fingers. The fluid sprayed onto Clodan’s cheek as Ray’s trembling legs released their tension. Wiping it away with the back of his hand, Clodan cruelly laughed and licked it up. The last clear thing Ray saw before passing out was Clodan’s yellow eyes, bright as the full moon.
