Chapter 93: Honey and Arsenic
“What good is it for you to do this?” Qin Kaiyi helplessly asked the man on the other side, “You don’t believe that I’ll compromise this way, right?”
“Why do you always refuse to give me a chance to try?” Shen Feixiao held a steaming cup of coffee in his hands. His clothes were very casual today, and he lost some of his usual aggressiveness.
“What chance?” Qin Kaiyi pursed his lips.
“I still have a lot of methods.” Shen Feixiao looked into Qin Kaiyi’s eyes calmly, “You can continue to try.”
“Then when are you willing to stop?” Qin Kaiyi was angered, “Shen Feixiao, aren’t you a bit too much? Do you know what I look like in my parents’ eyes now?”
“If you don’t run away, then I won’t force you.” Shen Feixiao took a sip of his coffee, bluntly saying: “You said that you would give me a chance, but now?”
“…Alright, if I go back, will you explain to my parents?” Qin Kaiyi swallowed hard.
“No,” Shen Feixiao refused tersely. He smiled at Qin Kaiyi, “…Relax, if you come back, I won’t do anything else.”
“But what about that kid?!!” Qin Kaiyi roared, “I really thank you for making me a father!!!”
Shen Feixiao calmly raised his hand and pushed his glasses, “It’s fine. I planned on adopting that child anyways. He’s very smart.”
“…” I’m not discussing the pros and cons of raising children with you, okay?! Qin Kaiyi wanted to complain, but didn’t dare say anything. He was truly scared of Shen Feixiao now.
“The other matters are easy to handle.” Shen Feixiao supported his chin with his hand, staring at Qin Kaiyi seriously, “Do you agree?”
“Okay, you win.” Qin Kaiyi could only surrender. He shoved the cake on the table into his mouth and sighed, “But you promised me that you won’t force me…”
“As long as you don’t run away, I of course wouldn’t force you.” Shen Feixiao’s aggressive logic appeared once again.
Qin Kaiyi wasn’t in the mood to chat with Shen Feixiao anymore and stood up and left.
“Ai, what’s the point of you doing this?” Shen Feixiao looked at Qin Kaiyi’s back and smiled–after going around in a large circle, they once again returned to the starting point.
Qin Kaiyi went home and began to pack with a dark face.
When Mother Qin saw this, she naturally asked why and Qin Kaiyi had no choice but to make up an excuse, saying that it wasn’t convenient to live at home after finding a job.
Because of the previous incident, Mother and Father Qin didn’t give Qin Kaiyi any good looks for a long time, and Qin Kaiyi also didn’t know how to explain himself. In fact, he really wanted to call the police, but whenever he thought of the other’s all-powerful forces, he could only give up.
This world was just like this. Those standing at the top always saw others as ants.
After packing up, Qin Kaiyi saw the child named Qin Ziqi staring at him cautiously by the door. His expression was as pitiful as you could imagine. Qin Kaiyi’s originally depressed mood got slightly better.
After all, everything that happened had nothing to do with the child in front of him. It was all what Shen Feixiao did, so to some extent, this child could also be considered a victim.
“Ziqi?” This was the first time Qin Kaiyi called the child’s name. He was still a bit awkward facing this child that popped out of nowhere, but now that there wasn’t anyone around, he didn’t think so much.
Qin Ziqi’s face was round and didn’t look like he was malnourished in the orphanage. However, his character was too quiet, not like a three or four-year-old child full of curiosity about the world.
“Daddy.” Qin Ziqi called softly, still clinging onto the doorframe and not letting go.
“Good.” Qin Kaiyi put down the things he was packing and couldn’t help but pinch the child’s face. Seeing his pitiful look from his pinching, he couldn’t help but kiss him: “You have to listen to Grandma and Grandpa… Daddy’s going out for a while.”
“Daddy, where are you going?” Qin Ziqi’s large eyes stared at Qin Kaiyi, “When will you be back?”
“…Uh, this…” Qin Kaiyi hugged Qin Ziqi in his arms, inexplicably comforted from the milky scent of the child: “Daddy will come back often to see Ziqi.”
“En.” Qin Ziqi thought for a moment, hesitating for a moment before pressing a kiss on Qin Kaiyi’s face. He then broke free from his arms and ran away, looking like a little daughter-in-law…
Qin Kaiyi who saw this felt his heart melt. He finally understood why children were healing.
Many years later, whenever Qin Kaiyi saw the youth that pretended to be obedient in front of him, he would spurn himself—how stupid he was at the beginning? Why did he ever think that Shen Feixiao would send a little angel to his house? Don’t talk sh*t about being an angel, he would be thankful if he just didn’t send a devil.
Qin Kaiyi, who once again moved back to his house, was in low spirits. Shen Feixiao arranged for him to work at his company. Qin Kaiyi didn’t have any other better options at the time and agreed. In any case, he would be living together with Shen Feixiao, so arguing about these things was pointless.
Actually, as long as Qin Kaiyi didn’t try to escape, Shen Feixiao treated him quite well.
Regardless of housework or whatever, those few delicious home-cooked meals a day would reduce Qin Kaiyi’s combat power to the negatives…
A lot of times, gathering up courage was very difficult to sustain…
Thus, Qin Kaiyi very shamefully surrendered.
Also, don’t know what Shen Feixiao did, but his parents that were super disappointed in him from the child and prostitute incidents changed their attitudes, occasionally calling Qin Kaiyi and asking about his life.
Whenever Qin Kaiyi suspiciously asked Shen Feixiao what he did, Shen Feixiao would smile and say he didn’t know.
In fact, what Shen Feixiao did was very simple. He just turned himself into air—something that didn’t seem important usually, but would make others suffocate when lost.
Habits were a scary thing. It was easy to form one, but difficult to get rid of.
Shen Feixiao was very willing to spoil Qin Kaiyi to the skies. He liked to see Qin Kaiyi’s satisfied and happy gestures, and also liked his lazy and sneaky maneuvers.
Of course, Shen Feixiao didn’t just want Qin Kaiyi’s tolerance. He wanted Qin Kaiyi’s complete acceptance.
A good hunter knew how to control boundaries to not make the prey break free or suffocate.
Qin Kaiyi had no idea what Shen Feixiao was thinking, but he was quite satisfied with his current lifestyle. Shen Feixiao didn’t make any ambiguous moves and acted more like a roommate than a suitor whilst living together.
En, that was fine too. A certain person that completely gave up ate freshly-baked snacks as he sat on the sofa watching soccer.
Shen Feixiao was usually busy, and Qin Kaiyi didn’t know where he squeezed out the time to do these things. For a long time, Shen Feixiao even washed his underwear for him…
Qin Kaiyi suddenly felt a sense of unease while munching on snacks, like a frog boiled in warm water, waking up slightly. However, that was only temporary because his posture was too comfortable… Qin Kaiyi muddle-headedly fell asleep.
How much time would you spend loving someone? Shen Feixiao spent a long time thinking about this issue. At first, he wondered whether it was just a momentary passion, but Shen Feixiao soon realized that perseverance really wasn’t a good thing.
Perhaps under the baptism of time, he no longer had passionate love for Qin Kaiyi.
But Shen Feixiao couldn’t accept Qin Kaiyi not being with him. It was like loving him had become a habit, flowing steadily even if the rapids weren’t fast.
Companionate love was perhaps the highest form of love.
Shen Feixiao no longer chased the idea of making Qin Kaiyi fall in love with him.
He knew that if there was a chance, Qin Kaiyi would definitely try to leave, but Shen Feixiao would never give him that chance. Not only that, he wanted Qin Kaiyi to grow used to his existence.
You can ignore my good, ignore my care, but if I take it all back one day—have you ever thought about it? Can you adapt to that kind of life?
The man in casual clothes smiled softly. He dragged his suitcase and walked out the door without looking back.
…
Qin Kaiyi realized that Shen Feixiao disappeared the afternoon of the next day.
He walked to the living room, only to find the food that was usually prepared had vanished. Not only that, there wasn’t even any leftover food in the kitchen.
“Shen Feixiao?” Qin Kaiyi was still puzzled at first. He wondered if something happened to Shen Feixiao, so he ate some bread first—ever since Shen Feixiao came to his house, his instant noodles were packed and thrown out.
However, how could Qin Kaiyi’s picky mouth now bear the taste of msg and unsavory instant noodles? He threw it away after two bites.
Where did Shen Feixiao go? Qin Kaiyi couldn’t think of a reason after a long time. Usually, Shen Feixiao would tell him he was going on a business trip in advance. Could something have happened to him…?
But Qin Kaiyi quickly woke up. Why should he worry? Shouldn’t he be happy that Shen Feixiao was gone? No one would force him again…
“En, it’s better to be gone.” Qin Kaiyi stared at the instant noodles in his hand a little dazedly, “Wasn’t I looking forward to it? Yeah, I should be happy.” Qin Kaiyi shook his head.
…
“You really dare to gamble like this? Aren’t you afraid of losing?” the woman’s eyebrows had shared some similarities with Shen Feixiao’s, smiling very beautifully.
“Of course I’m afraid.” Shen Feixiao stared at the vast world outside the window, answering very tersely.
“…Then why did you still dare to leave like this?” the woman was surprised.
“Sis,” Shen Feixiao calmly explained, “if he could bear to leave me, then that could only mean that there wasn’t enough time put in—I have a lot of time.”
“Why be so persistent?” the woman who Shen Feixiao called ‘Sis’ made a mocking smile, “I don’t think there’s anything that attractive about him.”
“Radish, carrots, and cabbages each have their own likes.” Shen Feixiao didn’t care about her ridicule, “You love your peonies while I love my dog tail grass. Besides, honey and arsenic, it’s two sides of the same coin. Who is the peony and dog tail grass depends on the eye of the beholder.”
“Yo, you’re quite protective, so I’m not allowed to say anything?” the woman didn’t mind Shen Feixiao’s counter, smiling: “Looks like you’ll be a wife slave after getting married.”
“If you don’t even pamper the person you love, then you’re doomed to a lifetime of solitude.” Shen Feixiao smiled, “Wife slave then wife slave, I don’t mind.”
“Is that so?” The woman saw that she couldn’t change Shen Feixiao’s mind and could only sigh, “If it succeeds, then bring him back for the old man to see. He…”
“Yes, I know.” Shen Feixiao nodded.
The author has something to say:
Many sisters think that Qin Kaiyi’s parents are too exaggerated, but I don’t think so.
For example, a sister said that her parents believe that she didn’t steal anything, and she indeed did not steal anything.
Then, if at this moment, a surveillance video appeared and the person in the video was that sister, would her parents still believe her?
If that was the case, then I can only say that this isn’t parental love but spoiling. Parents’ trust isn’t unprincipled.
The DNA report broke Qin Kaiyi’s parent’s trust in his. Qin Kaiyi couldn’t explain it, so his parents could only be disappointed in him.
As for the prostitute incident, I want to say that parents trust their children based on certain reasons, but Qin Kaiyi didn’t know how to explain. He could say that someone wanted to harm him, but if his parents asked for the details, how was he to explain? Of course, he could call the police, but it was very obvious that this would only make his parents more distrustful of Qin Kaiyi—Shen Feixiao definitely had measures in place if Qin Kaiyi called the police.
Qin Kaiyi had no choice but to use money to resolve the situation, but what did that look like in the eyes of bystanders? Obviously, it was guilt. There was no explanation, so it must be guilt. Then, how were they supposed to believe in Qin Kaiyi?
As for Shen Feixiao’s actions, I just want to ask one thing: if he didn’t do this, then how was he supposed to get Qin Kaiyi? Watching Qin Kaiyi leave with open eyes was obviously not in Shen Feixiao’s character. I am just writing about a person doing things within the scope of their character and really can’t accept negative points on this matter. You may be giving a negative rating with the point of a finger, but you would never know that negative rating would be equivalent to hundreds of words for me. Being able to accept negative reviews doesn’t mean that I wouldn’t feel sad about them all the same.
Finally, we get to Qin Kaiyi’s suggestion about mutual destruction.
I’m very helpless. I already said Qin Kaiyi’s values at the very beginning—which are also my values—a person’s life is very important. There may be many ups and downs, but if you give up and die, then there will be nothing left.
I also firmly believe that one day the suffering will pass, and if Qin Kaiyi provoked Shen Feixiao because of his behavior, leading to more unpredictable happenings, that would be very stupid in my opinion.
I’ve explained so much above, hoping that the sisters will calm down slightly = =…
Translator’s Note:
Some parts of the author’s note is useful to understand what’s going on, but you don’t necessarily need to read the whole thing. About the title, apparently honey contains trace amounts of arsenic, hence why Shen Feixiao says it is two sides of the same coin.
thank you
Thanks for your hardwork! <3
ah. i feel like their relationship is just go round in circle. with little to no progress.
i guess the theme of this novel is “controling”. i don’t mind, but i hope the author can give their relationship some development 😂
thank you for the translations! great job❤️