Chapter 91
My heart skipped a beat.
What did he mean by ‘illness’?
Isn’t it just a temporary symptom?
How does Jang know about this illness?
“Tell us.”
I stared at him, ready for his answer.
He took a deep breath and spoke quickly.
“I think you might be pregnant, Your Grace.”
There was a moment of silence.
“Pregnant?”
I asked him in disbelief.
“Me? Pregnant?”
I asked again, looking at Jang.
He nodded slowly.
“That’s impossible.”
I muttered blankly.
“Are you sure? Whenever I serve food, I sometimes notice signs of morning sickness.”
“Me, really?”
Rona stuttered, looking at me with a bewildered expression.
“Madam, is it true?”
How could I know?
I mumbled with a lost expression.
“You do show symptoms similar to those I’ve seen in pregnant women I’ve attended to.”
Jang spoke with conviction.
“And I recently made a special meal for the gathering.”
“Yeah, come to think of it, Madam, you’ve been tired and sleepy lately. You’ve even mentioned feeling nauseous and not eating certain foods…”
Rona folded her fingers, recalling the past moments one by one before clapping her hands.
“That’s right, that’s right!”
Rona’s face lit up with a bright smile.
“Madam, congratulations…”
“No, that’s impossible.”
I cut her off abruptly.
But as soon as the words left my mouth, I felt immediate confusion.
“That’s… I mean…”
I hurriedly interrupted Rona’s words.
In the past, it would have been absurd.
Such a thing couldn’t happen.
Unless an archangel descended and announced my pregnancy, it was impossible for me to conceive.
But this time…
‘It could have happened.’
It was very possible.
More than possible.
So on that night, when Amoide and I tangled without a thought, on that day when we discussed ‘the sword,’ we didn’t take any precautions.
It’s basic, it’s basic, it’s basic!
We should have done something, even if it meant hitting Amoide’s bottom!
‘I should have made sure…’
But at that point, both of our rationalities had flown out the window.
A baby.
A baby?
I lowered my hand and swept my abdomen.
I couldn’t believe it.
So, within this, could it be that the seed of our love… No, a new life has taken root?
No way, a baby in just one shot!
“Madam, where does it hurt now? Your face is as white as a ghost.”
“….”
“Madam?”
At the repeated call, I shuddered.
“It’s just the alcohol’s fault.”
I murmured, wrapping my head with my hands.
“….Huh?”
At the sudden remark, Rona observed my reaction.
“Anyway…”
I raised my head abruptly and looked at the two alternately.
“This is a secret.”
I raised my index finger and brought it to my lips.
At the serious whisper, the two looked at each other.
“What? Why? We should call the doctor right away…”
“No. We can’t do that!”
I exclaimed abruptly.
“Well, I…”
I tried to come up with an excuse inwardly, but nothing came to mind.
“It might not be pregnancy.”
“That’s impossible! I have a feeling. Right, Jang?”
“My intuition is certain. You can trust me.”
No. This time, it must be different.
“I want to wait until I’m more sure. Let’s keep it between us for now. Do you both understand?”
“Of course, if that’s what you want, Madam.”
“Me too.”
Rona nodded a bit sullenly and then brightened up again.
“Aren’t you happy? It’s the baby you’ve been waiting for…”
“Well, I still don’t know.”
I waved my hand dismissively.
“Both of you, leave. I want to be alone for a while.”
“But…”
Before Rona could say more, Jang intervened, seeming to have read my intention from her expression.
“Pregnancy requires adaptation more than happiness.”
Jang’s whisper reached my ears.
Rona looked at me, then at Jang, and then they both left the room together.
As soon as I heard the door click shut, I slid down in my seat.
“A baby…?”
I stroked my belly.
Again and again.
But my belly remained flat.
“Little one, are you in there?”
It sounded crazy, but I cautiously called out.
“I must be losing my mind.”
I began to recall the events of the past few days one by one.
As Rona said, all my symptoms were quite similar to early pregnancy symptoms.
It had been over two weeks since that night we spent together, and if, just if, the baby was conceived then…
“Oh my goodness.”
It made sense in a way.
It was a hypothesis with a high likelihood of being true.
If it were indeed true.
“How would he see me?”
The first face that came to mind was someone looking at me with disgust.
“He got what he wanted in the end, didn’t he?” The cold, accusing face of Amoide.
He would probably think it was deliberate.
Choosing a day with a high chance of conception and then forcing himself on me.
Just imagining it made me feel overwhelmed with fear.
“But it might not be.”
I decided to think positively.
Above all, I didn’t feel a strong sense of being pregnant.
Even if there was a new life inside me, shouldn’t there be something special about it?
Something other than feeling a bit tired, sleepy, and nauseous.
…What could it be?
I couldn’t know what it felt like to have a child.
It was only natural.
I should have had a child to know.
